Jeff Chang and the Gang!

Since our new schedule took effect last Wednesday, we were troubled where to go kasi ang aga ng out namin, 7:30am. Sarado pa ang malls so we hang out for a while sa McDonald's thinking of our next destination. Same routine, we decided to go to Megamall to watch a movie. We want to see "21 and Over". And it was a hilarious, naughty movie. I was sitting beside Nawol and were laughing so hard that we almost fell off our seat. Kasi naman the scenes were really funny plus there's sort of nudity. Were adults na naman kaya okay lang. We ate din sa Pizza Hut. I am so full kasi naman I ate chicken soup, Pasta Bolognese, garlic bread and supreme pizza. Sana tumaba na talaga ako. Our next destination next week: my place! :)

Hmmmm...

True!:) Sometimes, may mga tao tayo na nakilala that we don't expect na magiging part ng buhay natin. At first we thought they're just an ordinary friend na kasama mo parati but as time goes by, you learn to get close with each other. That comes naturally. Minsan mapapansin mo nalang parati na pala kayong magkasama at magkausap. That was not planned, nasanay nalang kayo ng ganun. Pero syempre you can't really say upfront sa isa't isa  na importante ka sa kanya, just because of the actions and the gestures, nakikita na yun. No need to hear the words. Sabi nga nila, "action speaks louder than words" na totoo naman. Nung una nyong meet, everything seems new, uneasy pa sa pakiramdam kasi you don't know if you'll be okay and medyo madami pang awkward moments. Then habang nagtatagal, you learn to accept each other and nakabuo na kayo ng routine na kayo lang ang nakakaintindi. Sometimes we are afraid to admit it pa that we just think everything is normal. Pero ang reality, may something special na. Yun lang hindi sya obvious kasi you still choose to be friends. Yung tipong you control how you feel kahit mahirap cause nakasanayan na. Nagsimula ang lahat na you're both clueless with each other hanggang naging super okay kayo. Makikilala mo lang talaga ang isang tao pag nakasama mo na sya. I've experienced this already. At first it's scary cause you don't want to expect, pero habang nagtatagal and as long as the friendship is there you will learn to be contented na din. Bahala na kung may kakahinatnan. What's important is that, you're there for each other. Okay na tayo dapat dun. Less assuming. No expectations. :)

Random Pics from Chum's Phone

Last March 3, 2013, before my team and I went to Megamall to watch a movie, we had this short bonding with Dianne outside the office. Purely kwentuhan and sharing of stories about work. She was my girl best friend at work. Were really close now. We called each other "Chums" coming from the word "Beschums" meaning best friends. She's someone I'll treasure talaga cause she's always there for me during rough times and even with my happiest moments. Akala ko nga nung una hindi kami magkakasundo cause she's a bit "mataray" pero once you get to know her, she's really generous, kind and super bait. We rarely took pictures together and kung may picture man kami we don't normally post it lalo na pag pangit yung anggulo. Ahaha. This was the first picture na pi-nost nya coming from her phone. This day, we bought two exactly the same shoes.  Sale kasi sa Megamall. She just celebrated her birthday last week din. Malapit na din ako. She also took a picture of  me and Poy, pinagtitripan nya kasi kaming dalawa nung araw na toh. Tuksuhan  mode lang so hinayaan nalang namin sya. First time ko din syang kinuwento dito sa blog ko. And it's an honor cause she's one of the most important person din ngayon na nakilala ko. :)

Another Quote

"If a guy likes you and is so afraid to fall for you, that would be a great source of stress. "

--Naging habit ko na ngayon na whenever I passed by a good quote I'll make sure I'll give a comment on it. Yesterday, I found another quote in Yahoo. So I wanna share what I'm up to about it. For me, the quote was a bit too confusing. Why would a guy like someone then takot naman pala sya ma-fall? I don't see any sense. Kasi pag gusto mo yung tao then you'll pursue the person. Dun din naman  ang next level, falling for that peson. I guess may exemptions lang yung quote na toh if the person you like is already committed. If hindi naman, then better. In my opinion din, yeah it maybe a source of stress. Kasi what if that person you like eh gusto ko na din then you're still trying to control yourself na wag nalang, nasayang lang ang chance. Why not take the risk? After all, wala namang mawawala. You'll learn pa nga in the end. Wag nalang nating i-stress ang sarili natin. Kung gusto then confess. Let's avoid the delaying tactics. I am not afraid to express what I feel. I always had the courage to do it cause I don't want to hope in the end. Habang maaga gusto ko ng malaman. So if hindi talaga, I can move on. It's a cycle. But on the other side, sometimes guys have their ego's din. Minsan takot nilang ligawan ang girl kasi they think super independent na sila or they can take care of themselves. Pwede ding nakikita nyang sobrang mature yung girl mag-isip. Well, hindi sa ganung standard dapat yun tinitingnan, it maybe a factor pero what you feel may change everything. Malay mo ikaw na din pala hinihintay nya. So always seize the moment before it's too late. :)

Eastwood + Somethin' Fishy + Heavy Rain + DQ = Happy RestDay!

Like the usual, even though we had a change of schedule, we decided to go to Eastwood in Libis. Dun lang kasi yung place na may eat all you can for breakfast and medyo malapit. We arrived there around 9am and ate at Somethin' Fish which cost P200 per head. Not bad kasi ang dami namang food talaga. I was so full after eating. Na-miss ko kaya ang ganung food pag breakfast. Corned beef, ham, tapa, waffles, toasted bread, pancakes, siomai. I mean everything you're craving for pag breakfast andun talaga. I'm with my team again, the vets. It was good kasi parating bonding pag restday, yun lang absent kaming lahat sa cinema today cause we chose to have a foodtrip. Sana nga tumaba na ako kasi pag kasama ko sila parati nalang kaming kumakain. Of course, hindi mawawala ang kwenthan, laugh mode at good conversation. Anything under the sun pinag-uusapan namin. Then we walked around Eastwood. Medyo boring ang environment cause we know sa gabi talaga toh' sikat. We strolled around the mall and took pictures. Then suddenly the rain poured out. Ang init init then biglang uulan. What's up with the weather? We decided to go To DQ and ordered our favorite flavors. I tried strawberry banana shake and it was good talaga. Hindi talaga mawawala sa eksena ang DQ pag magkakasama kami. This was another cool Thursday bonding. Hopefully magawa pa ulit namin toh kasi we have another shift bid that will take effect April 1 and I cannot guarantee if I will still have the same set of people. I am keeping my fingers crossed cause I've known them na and I was so comfortable with them na din. Sana team shift bid nalang. :)

Maya & Ser Chief

Aaminin ko, kinilig ako sa episode today. Well, not much of a teenybopper pero ito lang ang palabas na hindi ako nahiyang tumili at kiligin kahit kaharap ko si Mama at Papa. The scenes were smoothly done to attract the audience. And the characters are well played. Alam naman natin na super rare lang na mangyari ito sa totoong buhay kaya nga pag pinapanuod mo sya feeling mo ikaw nalang si Maya, ang swerteng yaya. The episode today was romantic. From Luke and Joey, to Nicki and Niccolo, by the way I find Niccolo cute kasi parang may kamukha sya na kilala ko and from Maya and Ser Chief na din. Na-share ko lang kasi ilang days na kong napupuyat kakahintay dito. Pati si Papa tinetext na ako pag malapit na mag-air at wala pa ko sa bahay. This serves as our bonding moment. Yung mga gestures kasi nila though simple at medyo awkward or sometimes exaggerated na okay pa din panuorin, hindi nakakasawa. Feeling naman ni Maya si Audrey Hepburn talaga sya sa scene na toh. By the way, na-imagine ko din ang sarili ko nung nakita ko yung black dress na suot nya at papasok ng pinto. A big transformation for her. :) Sana ako din in the futre. Ahaha. Si Ser Chief naman pamatay din ang mga punch lines. One thing na nagustuhan kong sinabi nya sa episode today is "A girl and a boy can't just be friends, lalo na pag close sila at parehas pa silang single." I wanted to agree na sana. Pero posible talaga sya. Sya nga pala, Maya got her first kissed on the cheek today with Ser Chief. Naloka nga si Mama eh nung napanuod. Can't wait for tomorrow's episode daw. Well, let's see. :)

Dear Crush

I find this post of my friend very funny and at the same time totoo sya. Kasi naka-relate ako dito. Minsan you'll dress well and inaayos mo yung sarili mo to get the attention of someone lalo na pag sa work. Syempre sobrang tiring and stressful sa work so all you need is a little glimpse from your crush. Parang high school lang di ba? Pero nakakapagpasaya ng feeling. Yung tipong haggard ka na at panay sermon maririnig mo tapos dumaan lang yung crush mo okay na lahat. At pag absent sya, wala ka din sa sarili mo. You'll need a piece of inspiration din naman sa work. Yeah, we need to finish reports and do our job pero everything will be more okay pag inspired ka. So I totally agree on this one. :)

Sudden

Unexpectedly, one of my colleagues at work had to leave for good opportunities abroad. Nauna pa sya sa akin. It was Sid, our account's RTA. It was a sudden decision na wala ng urungan lalo na pag magandang career ang pinagusapan. Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. Last Sunday were just hanging out in Megamall and then tomorrow he'll fly to Bahrain na. Ayoko naman ng ganyang biglaan kaya I still have a month and a half. Dati tuwing iniisip ko yun parang ang tagal pa pero now na palapit na ng palapit, ang hirap pala. When all your friends asking you to stay, even how many times you say "no" to them. you heart saying the other way around. Parang alam ko na ang na-feel ni Sid today. Something I don't want to feel in the coming days. Kahit madalas ng mapag-usapan, I still don't know how to take it. I maybe be just smiling around pag pag-alis na ang topic pero deep inside I was super confused din. I'm trying to weigh things out. This will be the biggest risk I am going to do in my life, for the sake of my family. If well-off lang kami, then I don't need to do this. I've sacrificed a lot of things in the past and this is something na kailangan kong pag-isipan. I know Sid would like to cry cause he will miss everyone. Pano pa kaya ako? Now that I'm attached with my team and I've got loads of close friends at work, baka one day and even one month is kulang. Panigurado yung one day of wallowing ko magiging katumbas ng hindi mabilang na araw. Drama, pero totoo. When you have all your friends with you all the time and suddenly you have to leave, it's to difficult. The friendship has been there. Ang hirap ng humanap ng ganun lalo pa sa ibang lugar. Sabihin na nating may Skype/FB, pero iba pa din pag kasama mo sila ng personal. Ayoko muna talaga tong' isipin sa ngayon pero hindi talaga maiwasan. I don't know if I need a miracle now or kailangan ko bang tumama sa lotto para hindi ako matuloy, I just really don't know. Isa itong napakagandang opportunity that if given to someone, for sure they'll grab it. Yun lang talaga, you will feel a bit incomplete. Hindi lang naman lovelife or family lang ang labanan, halos lahat. Ayoko sana mapunta sa ganitong stage but how many days from now, I need to face this. And I need to be strong. Well, I'm a strong person naman. Sana ganun din ako sa ganitong bagay. I am really asking for God's sign if this is really meant for me. Before, I prayed for career growth. And dumating toh. Now that I'm almost on the tip of fulfilling my greatest dream, why I'm holding back? Siguro pag nasagot ko yung tanong na toh before ako umalis, malalaman ko if I still need to pursue this or not. I still had a month. Most likely my realizations will go big pag palapit na sya ng palapit. For the meantime talaga, seize the moment lang. Then bahala na. 

???

--Just passin' by this quote again in Twitter. I find this very true. Causa I may had this feeling na. Yung tipong okay kayo, everyone's thinking na kayo na pero in reality you don't have a label kasi wala naman talaga, sadyang close lang talaga kayo. There maybe times na you act more than friends pero ganun lang kayo sa isa't isa hat other people might misinterpret it or even wish na totoo nalang sana. There were instances na you care for each other pero ganun din kayo sa iba pero ag kayo na, people think something's special is going on. Meron nga ba? Kasi nakikita ng iba pero kayo parang normal lang. Then how will we see it? Are we just dumb or really just afraid to express it? That's the big question. And worst it, there were moments na parang you don't know each other. Too much closeness then the next day, totally no talks at all. Such a weird thing. And complicated also. So what will you choose? Kasi naman when you're happy, you don't care. Whether you're friends lang, more than friends or whatever. Okay na happy nga eh. Pero time will come na hindi puro happiness lang, you will also need to identify kung ano kayo and that might change everything. I don't know if I'm ready pag dumating yung time na yun. Kasi baka assuming lang tayo. Chill and enjoy for no one can really tell. 

DQ and French Baker

I never thought that blueberry cheesecake tastes that good. I tried it yesterday and I loved the taste. Rogan, Poy and I bought one slice of blueberry cheesecake from French Baker yesterday. They've tasted it before. This was my first time. And okay sya. Akala ko kasi madali akong masasawa cause it was pure cheese and naisip ko na baka salty sya. But it's appetizing. We also tried the Hokkaido cake. Hindi talaga namin alam kung anu yun. We just wanna taste it. Parang "bibingka" sya. Medyo walang lasa at matabang, at least bawi naman sa garnishing and packaging. Then we had our Dairy Queen moments again. Pag magkakasama kaming tatlo, we always buy DQ. We had our own favorite flavors. Rogan likes the strawberry cheese. Poy wants the Chocolate Almond and I adore the usual Double Dutch. Sayang umuwi na kasi yung iba. Sana we all enjoyed it. :)

Oz

Every rest day mas nagiging updated ako sa mga movies. All new movies halos napanuod ko na. Thanks to my team kasi they influenced me. Yesterday, we watched "Oz The Great and Powerful". It was just aired two days ago and I've already watched it. It was a fun movie, pambata talaga plus the effects was too cute and colorful. It'll be more appreciated if we had it on 3D. But it was fun cause we got the lazy boy seat. Though it's kinda cold, comfortable ang feeling. I bought the large size popcorn and Coke. I was seating beside Poy again. May mga times we talked while the film is rolling and we ate popcorn. That little China girl from the movie is so adorable. And Findley too, a very emotional monkey. James Franco is superb. From all his movie that I've watched, he always comes in a good act. He never fails to amazed me. Plus the fact that he's gorgeous kahit medyo matanda na sya. When I watched this parang bumalik ako sa pagkabata. A simple story about faith and believing in the impossible. Pag faith ang pinag-usapan, I always had an eye on it. It's been tested na dati pa. Anyways, this has been a cutesy movie. Back to reality later due to change of schedule and oh Monday please be good to me! Ahaha :)

Better off as......friends?

May mga bagay sa mundo na iniisip mo na makuha mo sana kahit imposible. Okay lang naman kasi libre lang mangarap. At may mga bagay din na kahit ilang beses mong i-wish, you'll never get it. Ba't ko toh nasabi? Cause there will be a point in your life that you will like someone hoping they will like you back. Out of 100%, almost 30% lang dun ang nagkakatotoo. Syempre may reason kung bakit at dapat alam na natin yun. In my life, I've reached to a point that I liked someone (iba ang "like" sa "love, kaya nakakalito) that I want to know him well and get along well with him. Nagkatototoo na yun. I became a good friend of that person and were both comfortable sharing a lot of things. Di ba "like" ko na yung person so hindi maiiwasan that I will aim na mag-step up kami to the next level. Aminado ko na-experience nyo din yan. But in that situation I am not the type who will do anything just to really get that person's attention all the time, yung tipong papansin. I am not like that. Hindi ko nga alam kung advantage or disadvantage yun sa part ko. I just enjoy every moment na kasama sya wishing na ma-realize yun. In our new generation, iba na ang definition nun. Pero I'll stick to the traditional. Yung tipong bahala na. When things went well, when you know that person so much and you're always together, bigla mong mare-realize na you're better be seen as friends and not more than that. Kasi pag friends kayo, no awkward moments. Pag friends kayo, mas malaki yung time na magkasama kayo. Tuksuhin man kayo ng ibang tao, you both know where you stand. Walang expectations. Less hurt yung mararamdaman mo. Why did I say that? Cause I find it more okay. Ang labo ng paliwanag ko db? At least kung kaibigan lang talaga ang tingin nya sayo hindi ka na mag-a-assume ng sobra. But syempre, at the back of our mind, we still had the hope that we will go up a notch higher. Yun lang, hindi pa siguro ito ang perfect time. Being off as friends now is better than trying to rush things and in the end, you'll both lose each other. For now, you're building a strong foundation through friendship and if the time comes that you're both ready, maybe it'll be easier for each person. It's not an act of selfishness. It's an act of waiting for the perfect moment. :)

Jack and my Team! :)

Every rest day, we make sure that my team and I always go out. Kahit saan lang. Hindi naman kami choosy and maarte. What's unique about my new team is, we all love to watch movies. Yung previous team ko puro kain ang ginagawa namin and for this one mas nagiging updated ako sa mga bagong movies. Kahapon , after our shift, we went to SM Megamall and decided to watch "Jack The Giant Slayer".  We were there around 11pm and took the 2pm movie premier so we can eat and at the same time strolled around, the usual stuff na ginagawa sa mall. Hindi pa lumilipas ang restday namin na we did not go out. Super consistent namin. We took pictures and talked a lot of things. Mas nakikilala ko sila and I'm sure they felt the same way din sa akin. We jived together and we laughed hard. We may not be the perfect team pag nasa office but can say I've got one of the happiest and coolest team sa floor. 

What's the sense???

Yesterday was one of the most craziest and stressful day at work. I arrived at the office around 10:30pm (thirty minutes earlier than the usual), I opened my Outlook and checked the messages. I was caught by this one message coming from ForceDesk so I opened and read it. To my surprise, they're changing my team's schedule. From Sun-Mon-Thur/Sun-Mon restdays to Wed-Thur-Sat/Wed-Thur off. So I was like, "Anu toh? Why I was not informed?". I was going to ask someone for an explanation but they're not yet around. First thing na naisip ko, "what's the sense of shift bid?". Hindi na nga pinakita yung name ng supervisor last time then they need to change our schedule. And take note, this is a very drastic change. After 2 hours, Boss Corey called me and discussed the changes. I did not make any response cause I wanted to listen and then he told me he's going to talk to my team. And I said, "Okay". Kinausap nya yung team ko separately and he got serious negative feedbacks especially from the newbies. My newbies used to take calls 10 hours a day so naiintindihan ko kung bakit ganun reaction nila which is why I'm thinking bakit hindi nila naisip yun bago baguhin ang schedule. As if they just wanna change it and napagtripan lang yung team namin. The discussion was fine and we had some arguments somehow. But he promised to see what he can do when he gets back on Tuesday. So, end of discussion. I know he's kinda pissed off hearing those reactions but he treated it positively. Until an hour and a half before the end of the shift that something unexpected happened. He called me again and told that he will dissolve my team kasi daw matitigas ang ulo at ang daming reklamo sa schedule. To my surprise he wanted me to handle CJ's team. Hindi ko alam kung ano iisipin ko that time. And while he was saying it, sobrang firm na nya and I was a bit afraid din na baka hindi na magbago ang decision nya. I was so confused with the happenings na hindi na din ako makapag-isip ng tama. So out of nowhere, nakapagsalita na din ako. I defended my team cause I want them to be intact. I don't have any personal reason. I fix this team and I want to spend my remaining days at work na kasama sila. So I argued with Boss Corey. I told him I can make this team work with our new schedule and that he will not hear any negative comments about changing our schedules anymore. I talked to my team. I explained everything. Hindi sa pagmamayabang pero alam ko namang, they all don't want to lose me and their teammates. They agreed to accept the new schedule. Wala namang choice. Ang pangit lang na-corner talaga kami. When they all don't want to accept the new schedule, they decided to change the supervisor leaving us no choice talaga. It's not that I don't want to handle CJ's team, napamahal na din sa akin ang bago kong team plus my effort of pushing them to perform and getting along with them. I really hate this day. I just hate the fact that kahit saang anggulo mo tingnan, talo ka. It's not that I don't want to lose, parang wala kasi akong nagawa. Flexibility is the big concern, yes. But what's the sense of bidding for your own schedule, definitely nonsense. You worked hard to get the closest chance to bid for the schedule you want to have and all of a sudden they'll just take it away from you. I am not acting immature. I just want it to be fair. My team consists of agents with higher pacman rating and they don not deserve this. Maybe I really don't know how to run this business but as a person, everyone deserves to get an explanation. Something acceptable. I am hoping that after this change, wala ng susunod. If ever meron man, I hope it will not affect my team.