Sudden

Unexpectedly, one of my colleagues at work had to leave for good opportunities abroad. Nauna pa sya sa akin. It was Sid, our account's RTA. It was a sudden decision na wala ng urungan lalo na pag magandang career ang pinagusapan. Ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. Last Sunday were just hanging out in Megamall and then tomorrow he'll fly to Bahrain na. Ayoko naman ng ganyang biglaan kaya I still have a month and a half. Dati tuwing iniisip ko yun parang ang tagal pa pero now na palapit na ng palapit, ang hirap pala. When all your friends asking you to stay, even how many times you say "no" to them. you heart saying the other way around. Parang alam ko na ang na-feel ni Sid today. Something I don't want to feel in the coming days. Kahit madalas ng mapag-usapan, I still don't know how to take it. I maybe be just smiling around pag pag-alis na ang topic pero deep inside I was super confused din. I'm trying to weigh things out. This will be the biggest risk I am going to do in my life, for the sake of my family. If well-off lang kami, then I don't need to do this. I've sacrificed a lot of things in the past and this is something na kailangan kong pag-isipan. I know Sid would like to cry cause he will miss everyone. Pano pa kaya ako? Now that I'm attached with my team and I've got loads of close friends at work, baka one day and even one month is kulang. Panigurado yung one day of wallowing ko magiging katumbas ng hindi mabilang na araw. Drama, pero totoo. When you have all your friends with you all the time and suddenly you have to leave, it's to difficult. The friendship has been there. Ang hirap ng humanap ng ganun lalo pa sa ibang lugar. Sabihin na nating may Skype/FB, pero iba pa din pag kasama mo sila ng personal. Ayoko muna talaga tong' isipin sa ngayon pero hindi talaga maiwasan. I don't know if I need a miracle now or kailangan ko bang tumama sa lotto para hindi ako matuloy, I just really don't know. Isa itong napakagandang opportunity that if given to someone, for sure they'll grab it. Yun lang talaga, you will feel a bit incomplete. Hindi lang naman lovelife or family lang ang labanan, halos lahat. Ayoko sana mapunta sa ganitong stage but how many days from now, I need to face this. And I need to be strong. Well, I'm a strong person naman. Sana ganun din ako sa ganitong bagay. I am really asking for God's sign if this is really meant for me. Before, I prayed for career growth. And dumating toh. Now that I'm almost on the tip of fulfilling my greatest dream, why I'm holding back? Siguro pag nasagot ko yung tanong na toh before ako umalis, malalaman ko if I still need to pursue this or not. I still had a month. Most likely my realizations will go big pag palapit na sya ng palapit. For the meantime talaga, seize the moment lang. Then bahala na.