Broken but Beautiful

After 15 days, he broke the silence. I thought it will never gonna happen after how many days of waiting. I finally conclude that something has really changed. Napansin ko yun kagabi. Alam kong sa akin may nagbago ganun din sa kanya. Ganun siguro talaga. I can't blame the situation. More than anything else I am happy na-retain pa din ang friendship. Maya ilangan na. But I know we can get rid of this pag nagtagal. Alam kong babalik din kami sa dati sa tamang oras at panahon. Okey na siguro ako ng ganito muna. Nakakatawa na hindi ko pinakinggan ang mga payo sa akin ng mga kaibigan ko. Sila na may mga karanasan na sa ganitong bagay. Matigas talaga ang ulo ko. Pero minsan kailangan I need to do this thing for me to learn and experience it on my own. Yeah, truth hurts. Wala namang bagay na madali eh. Lahat naman tayo nag-struggle. Ito talaga ang realidad ng buhay. Usapang puso palang toh. Paanu na kung dumating ang mabibigat na problema ko, dapat handa na ko.

Last night, when I saw him. I don't know what my reaction will be. I did greeted him. But not like before. It feels so weird that I too change. Maybe for the better cause if I stay close to him I know it will be hard for me to move on. Buti nalang kahit paano may diversion ako. I am trying to control my feelings. I wanted to talk to him like what we used to do pero kagabi I did a good job. Medyo masakit gawin on my part pero this is for the best. Until he was the one who approached me. Inakbayan nya ako at kinamusta. Hindi ko alam kung ginawa nya yun para ma-feel ko that he was not avoiding me. Whatever the reason, I don't wanna know anymore. The whole night we were both silent. The whole night I was just trying to glanced at him hoping that everything will be back to normal, yung parang nung dati na hindi ko pa sinasabi yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Ganito pala talaga yung pakiramdam. Unexplainable. I am no longer confused cause I get everything I wanna know. Alam kong nahalata nya din na medyo awkward ako. Kasi ba naman 15 days ang lumipas, he doesn't even replied to my messages. He was not like that before kaya kitang-kita ko na nag-iba na talaga ang lahat. I just need to accept the fact that he just thought of me as a friend. And I thought of him as more than a friend. Ouch! Later magkakasama na naman kami. I am wishing that everything will be fine. For the sake of friendship.:(