Unexplainable Hug

I had this weird feeling when I left Pinas. Kasi naman nung magpapaalam na ko sa mga friends ko, I hugged them one by one. Like the rest of them, I made beso din with everyone. But the thing is, I felt something different kaya naman kahit nasa plane na ko tI was thinking about it. I am experiencing atelophobia again, short for overthinking or overanalyzing stuff. Kaya ko nasabi yan kasi lahat ng hi-nug ko everything was normal. But one person made it different. When I hugged and made beso with him, he pushed me. Yung tipong gusto ka nyang yakapin ng mahigpit kaso baka nahiya lang sya. Nung niyakap ko sya I felt like he don't wanna let go. I felt something that time. Sadness. Cause I know he's sad knowing that we will not see each other anymore. Tama lang talaga na tawagin ko syang Mr. Hug. What I don't understand is that pinipigilan pa nya. Maybe he was scared. But I'm happy because everyday were communicating. He never failed to send a message. He always make an effort para kamustahin ako. And for that, I feel so very importany. It's just that I don't know hanggang kelan. Sana lang hindi sya mapagod. Hindi sya magsawa. For now, mag-enjoy nalang muna siguro ako and be thankful kasi andyan pa din sya despite of the distance. :)