Drama Week :(

I hate this week. I am not really wishing for a perfect Monday-Friday happenings, just the average is totally fine with me. However, this week really sucks. From work, to my personal life, lovelife (meron ba?) and at home. Everything is not going well the way I expect it. Maybe I assume and thought that every week will be just almost the same than the previous one not opening my mind that there were really days that we feel off  and that we just want it to pass hoping that the next day will be a better one. Why my week sucks? Here are the reasons:

1. My RSR performance is very poor. I ended 18.75% last Monday. Well, the week after that I got 6.75% which is very pathetic. Then Wednesday 17.95%. What's up with my RSR??? Very frustrating to get a 16.67% MTD. 

2.  An officemate who happen to spy all the time. Hey, were not celebrities so stop asking for information. Mind your own business. What's with the lies? Better keep your mouth shut. It annoys me seeing you walking back and forth the hallway wherein fact your shift is still at 1am and you're here at the office at 8:30pm. For whaattt??? Okay, breathe. I've said too much. 

3. Unexpected message I read from someone close to me. But of course the message was not directly for me, it just happened I read it and from thereof, I felt that I need to start treating that person differently. I felt like all efforts wasted and even my hope faded in just one message. Lesson learned in the hard way. Do not assume. I posted a lot of emo and bitter tweets and I don't know if he read it. I don't care cause that's what I'm feeling that time. I decided to get some space but failed to hold on to it and decided to get things back to normal. But believe me, when I read it, I almost cry and I felt like I wanna rewind everything hoping that I did not pass by that message so that my mood was not ruined. I just get myself back today where I learned to simply ignore it but be more guarded. Protecting my feelings is such a selfish thing to do. 

4. Getting sick. With the change of the weather, I got severe cough and flu. My asthma attacked which I haven't experience for more than a year already. I was absent from work last Thursday and need to see a doctor for check-up. I'm having difficulty breathing that it scares me. Good thing I had my Mom beside me. 

5. The rain. It's okay for me to rain when I'm just at home but heavy rains and you need to go to work, that's insane. Hello traffic. Hello taxi. Hello getting wet feet which I hate the most. Thanks to my new umbrella, I survived the rainy days.

6. Arguments at home. Whenever the topic is all about me going abroad, the conversation always become intense. My father and I sharing different opinions and my Mom being neutral is very hard to handle. Sometimes I wonder the issue of working abroad will not be a family issue if no one open the idea or said about it. I know it's a good opportunity but the main heat of the argument is still about the finances. We are not yet financially stable to support my travel abroad. Plus, the fact that no one is willing to help. That's the truth. 

Some of the reason maybe simple or petty but this still irritates my week. I don't know if this has something to do with my gland or being immature but I'm glad my drama week is over and I'm looking forward to a better week  two days from now.