Need and Want

I need this job more than I want it. That was the first thing in my mind right now. Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody. Most of my closest friends at work are leaving the company due to variety of reasons. I can't force them to stay. I just need to respect them and be happy with their decision. I am merely sad because of it but I can't beg them to stay when they aren't happy anymore. It is really hard but I need to cope up with it. We all have our own personal reason why we need to stay than go. In my case, I need this because of my family. I am the only one working. They are my responsibility. What my decision now will reflect what will be our life in the coming days. So I can't be just aggressive making a decision without thinking hard. It's not that I am scared of having regrets, I just can't sacrifice the life of my family. It is a big deal for me. They are my life. I know most of my friends are leaving now but it doesn't mean I can lose the communication with them. Friendship will still go on. After all, this binded us together for how many months now. Well, the time you spend with each other no longer matters cause what counts the most is that you are still there for them whatever instances it is. That's what friends are for. At work, I found real friends I can treasure for the rest of my life. We may have differences and flaws but we learned to accept each other and continuously enjoy the company. I love them as much as I love my work and family. But sometimes you need to choose which you think is right as of the moment, not maybe the best decision but be good for now. It doesn't end here. I still want changes in my life and sooner I'll settle everything. But as for now, I need to sacrifice. I hope my friends understand me. I wish nothing but the best luck for them.