Precious Heritage Orphanage..I Will Come Back!

I have been a kid once and I miss being one. My life revolves between my work and my family. Little do I know that aside from that I still had a mission to do in this world. That is to teach kids the value of life and share my love with them. My time at Precious Heritage Orphanage has been a life altering experience. I was really glad to be part of this outreach program. I feel very blessed with the opportunity given to me by the small group headed by Caesar Ramirez and the Victory Church. I will be forever thankful to them.

I was a bit exhausted on my way to Precious Heritage Orphanage but when I saw the children, my anxieties were relieved. My mood was positive. When I saw all the smiling faces welcoming us as we walked inside the orphanage, I knew I was meant to be there. Flashbacks started when I saw them playing and enjoying their life as a kid. I knew I was like them so many years ago. Energetic and playful. In one way or another, I missed my childhood days. My heart melted as they approached us. Much more when we started the program. Despite of their situation, they still managed to have the best time of their life, be so happy and full of wonder.

As a kid, we knew they love games. They love to play. They love to exert effort. So we came up with something that will boost their confidence, teach them how to be competitive and of course have fun. To watch them wanting to learn new things and receiving our love was so priceless. This made a lasting impact on my life. And to know that I was part of this filled me with contentment and happiness. To see them smile from receiving something as simple as a hug really touched me. These children are so uniquely beautiful and a great gift from God.

The one-to-one session I had with one of the kids there was totally heartbreaking. It indeed made me cry. What these children endure everyday is more than most we could ever imagine. So sad there are real stories like this. So unfortunate this exists in real life. I tried to be careful in asking questions with them for I know they can be too sensitive especially when the topic is about their family. I don't want to see them shed tears. I don't want to see them sad. As much as possible, I tried to crack jokes to lighten the situation. But behind my back, what I've heard deeply tore my soul. These children deserve every good thing in this world but they were deprived of the chances at an early age. I know God is good and that He will protect and guide them as they grow up. They will soon be with their family and have a wonderful life. They will finish their studies and will be successful in the future. God has a plan for each one of them. This maybe just a test for them now but God will not give us something we cannot surpass, sooner or later the challenges and trials will be over and they will have a fruitful beginning and a happy ending.

And as I leave, I know that I will return as much as possible. I fell in love with all the children there. It was a happy feeling to touch so many lives in a short time but even so great to be inspired by this kids. The feeling is rewarding. This truly changed the way I view life. I now realize how the smallest deeds can make a world of difference in the lives of others. An awesome experience I’ll never forget.

"The Fantasticks" is so Fantastic!

I've already heard a lot of good feedbacks from this musical play. Luckily, while I was browsing the TicketWorld homepage I saw that "The Fantasticks" musical play will going to have a repeat Monday which is November 16 at Repertory Philippines in Greenbelt. I made a reservation right away even though I am not fully sure if I could I attend to it cause I got work that time. Schedule conflict again.

As the day itself goes on and it's Monday, I was totally excited to watch. Yeah, I'm going to watch it all alone. Weird?! My friends got work this day and I know everyone will be busy cause it is the start of the week. I went there 30 minutes earlier. Students were lined-up. They came from St. Paul College and St. Scholastica. I went there wearing a blue green dress. Cool! I don't usually wear dress but I've tried it. So far I love it. The entire auditorium was jam packed with students. I sat at I/8. The seat I chose was perfect. I could see the entire stage. It was also a bit cold inside. Then the play started. It was PJ Valerio who was the lead actor and the girl, she's very unknown to me but she's definitely good and her voice was marvelous. It was Julia Abueva who played the original role but she's in Singapore that time for the APEC Summit. Well, the other girl who replaced her role also performed well. The story was good. The actors were great. It was indeed a lovestory filled with fun and intimate moments. I truly enjoyed it. Fantastic!

Here are additional information about the play. It is pretty interesting.

The Fantasticks, the world's longest-running musical, is a captivating and simple romantic comedy about a boy, a girl, two fathers and a wall. The audience uses its imagination to follow El Gallo as he creates a world of moonlight and magic, and then pain and disillusionment, until the boy and girl find their way back to one other. In a clever reverse of the Romeo and Juliet story, two fathers put up a wall between their houses to ensure that their children fall in love, because they know that children always do what their parents forbid. After the children do fall in love, they discover their fathers' plot and they each go off and experience things in the world. They return to each other and the love they had, having learned from the world, bringing to life a funny and quite touching story of innocence, and of knowledge.

Repertory Philippines’ The Fantasticks stars teenage sensation Julia Abueva as Louisa, and teen heartthrob PJ Valerio as Matt. Completing the cast is a respectable list of theater veterans. Jake Macapagal stars as El Gallo. The Fathers, Bellomy and Hucklebee are played by Dido de la Paz and Jaime del Mundo. Miguel Faustman reprises his role as Henry, the old actor and relative newcomer to the stage but already making waves is Red Concepcion as Mortimer.

Facts That Every Girl Must Know About Boys

Girls can be very judgmental most of the time and boys can be pretty insensitive too. But believe it or not, we both can't live without the other. Boys are tend to be misunderstood all the time. Poor guys. So I come up with a list that every girl like me should know about boys. After all, we are not just after their looks, we also count the most their attitude. Check this out:

-A guy won't kiss a girl on her forehead unless he's really serious about her.
-Boys love it when we notice their new haircut and compliment about it.
-They get embarassed by too much attention.
-Boys like girls who can make funny faces for the camera without worrying about looking silly.
-When they're upset, they also find comfort in chocolates and ice cream.
-Boys watch chessy soap operas too!
-They also always check their Facebook page to see if other guys are leaving flirty comments on his girl's Wall.
-Boys also believe in fairytales.
-When a guy was force to watch chick flicks, they pretend not to like it, but they get butterflies, too.
-Horror movies also freak them out big time!

-Rain also makes them feel emo and sentimental too.
-They love girls who are very upfront with their feelings.
-Guys are big chatterboxes too.
-Guys thInk that girls in messy ponytails are cuter than girls with salon-perfect hair.
-They get anxious when girls go in the bathroom in groups because they are worried that we might be gossiping about them.
-They were huge fans of Gossip Girls as well. They were also touched when Chuck Bass finally said those three words, eight letters to Blair Waldorf.
-Guys find it cool when a girl has a big appetite.
-They also get "kilig" when they see us viewed their Friendster account.
-Guys put up a strong front but they also get hurt easily.
-Guys also care about clothes and shopping.
-Guys were in love when the name of the girl they adore always come up in their conversations with other people.
-They also get jealous when girls swoon over Edward Cullen even if he's fictional.

So girls, let us be more patient with them. They may be shy to come out of their shell. But at the end of the day, we all know that it takes a lot of gutts to finally know them. (source: candymag)

...Boys of God...

(Glemar, Joshua, Manuel, Csar, Ferdie, Eric and Leo)

As we define boys, they are always known to be as the adventurous and very sporty type of person. They are considered to be strong physically and emotionally. They are born to be leaders. They are very competitive. That is how everybody perceive the male species until I've met this group of guys which totally change my impression about them positively. I defined boys as complicated, sensitive and unpredictable. Do I sounds unfair here? Not now when I became friends with this guys. One Sunday morning after my teaching session at the Kids Church in Victory, my close friend invited me to join their small group. Without my knowledge, they were all composed of boys. Yeah, they were all boys with Adam's apple and muscles. In Biblical term, "small group" are well-explained as sets of people with the same gender whose very much willing to study and learn about God's life. They love to preach the word of God and they will help you to become a good disciple of Christ. I was a bit nervous when I met them. But honestly, they don't look scary at all. In fact, they all look very cool. Whew! At first, I was very quiet. I was listening to their conversation and I merely observe. They were talking about the outreach program we will organize at Precious Heritage Orphanage at Cupang Antipolo. I was part of it and I was very happy cause I love this kind of activities. Anything that involve helping kids I truly make time for it. After all, I've been a kid once and I miss being one. Few minutes passed, I began talking. I also started sharing my ideas. They were all soft-spoken and somewhat serious. Most of all, they were all nice. And I felt like the only rose among the thorns.

It is fascinating to meet guys whose very devoted to God. I wish all guys are like that. The way they speak makes me want to listen cause I know I will learn a lot from them. I'm not good in Bible verses but with them you'll get used to it. They have bright and smart ideas which I would like to absorb for I know in one way or another this will help me. Maybe not now but in the future. They talk well. Every words they mention is filled with sense and humor. They were also funny and candid. It's like they know how to balance their life between their chosen craft. They can be very cheesy sometimes. Well, they were still normal guys. What makes them stand above every other guy that I've met is their great faith and belief with God. I can count in my hands now if how many guys I've met like them and I'm sure with myself its not even less than ten that is why I am very much thankful to spend a little time with them. I maybe just sitting around, cracking jokes and making happy faces but deep in my soul they inspire me. They were like big brothers to me. I was lucky to have them as my brothers, for sure I'm in good hands. I just hope they can tolerate my "wacky" side. Ahahaha..

I know you may not know them but I'll bet you'll like them once you get the chance to sit with them during their small group session. I called them as "Boys of God" because I respect them when it comes to loving God. They were different from boy bands out there or Korean actors. They're very much real and open-minded. I enjoyed their company and I really appreciate the fact that they welcome me with smiling faces. It maybe awkward meeting them from the beginning but all ends well. Wow. I was amazed with their group. It was overwhelming. No kiddding! The feeling is rewarding. Oprah Winfrey once quoted, "Surround yourself only with people who will lift you higher". And that is basically true once you get along with them. You will never feel down. Even for hours I talked with the group I did learn a lot and I come up with good realizations about life. I love the way they treat you like they know you for so long. Fair and just. I am so proud of you guys! Keep it up. And thank you for the caramel frappe from Chaikopi! Till our next meeting...Thanks Csar, Glemar, Ferdie, Eric, Robert and Leo!

Missin' My Good Friend Jeric

I really don’t know how to start this things up. Wala lang. I feel so sad that I as long as the rest of the Thomasians missed the companion of our great friend, Jeric. Madaya man isipin kasi he left us unexpectedly. Ganunpaman, he has been part of our life for a long time. Who could ever forget him? We had been friends and classmates way back in highschool so daming memories talaga nun. Hindi man kami madalas magkasama, meron pa ding mga times na maaalala mo talaga sya. Bukod sa sobrang dedicated sya sa studies nya, he is very friendly to everyone. Kaya panalo sa kahit anung botohan yan, mapa-CSG or barangay elections. Bow kami jan. I remember Jeric as a friend na lagi andyan, financially or emotionally. I remember nung 2nd year kami there was a task na you will be writing a letter to one of your closest friend, I received one from him. I was surprised, ang saya kaya ng pakiramdam na naalala ka pa niya. Nakasulat pa sa letter na once I get married daw kunin ko daw sya ninong sa kasal, masyadong advance db? Pero sayang Jeric hindi mo na tinupad yung sinabi mo dun. Tapos leader pa yan sa paggawa ng projects namin sa Filipino. One of Thomas’ unforgettable moment is nung ginagawa namin ung Noli Me Tangere and El Filibusterismo. Full force kami lahat jan. Pati yung "mumu" scene na si Edel atah ung napagdiskitahan sa kampanaryo ng simbahan sa Sta. Monica, dedma pa din kami tinuloy pa rin namin yung project. It is all worth the effort naman. Pati yung retreat sa Baguio wherein that time our family is having financial problem, supposedly dapat hindi na ko makakasama pero he made a way para ma-experience ko yung moment na un. I really thanked you for that kahit pagbalik natin from Baguio sinabon tayo ni Monsignor at Father Nap because of vandalism.

Jeric was also one of my good mentor pagdating sa pagiging commentator at lector ko every first Friday mass. He was always there to help and guide me out. Naalala ko pa nung puro mali-mali instruction ko nun sa isang misa na pinag-upo at tayo ko yung mga tao, sa halip na tumawa sya, he tapped my shoulder at sabi nya, "okay lang yan." At eto pa, ako pa ang taga-abot ng mga goodluck letters ni Jessa sa kanya kapag magco-compete kami sa Bulprisa. (Peace out Jessa!) At ang pagtukso-tukso ng klase sken kay Andrew sya rin ang promotor. Kakaiba ka talaga Jeric.

Hindi ba nakaka-miss ang ganitong klase ng kaibigan? I knew after the graduation we we totally lose communication na. Sobrang sorry Jeric if kung hindi mo na-feel ang presence ko during your campaign period. Puro text lang ako. I admit I was busy that time pero until now sobrang may regret din dahil I never thought na maikling time nalang pala ang mai-spend mo kasama kaming mga classmates mo. The last time I saw you pa nga sakay ka din ng motorsiklo na angkas mo yung brother mo, I never thought din na yun na pala ang huli. Nakakalungkot talaga. When I heard about your death, sobrang nanlambot ako to the point na hindi ako makapaniwala, until now I still can’t believe na you are not here with us anymore. Mag-tatlong taon na din un. Parang ang bilis ng panahon pero kaming mga kaibigan mo andito pa din umaasa na isang araw baka bumalik ka pa para makita uli namin ang pagngiti mo kasabay ng paglitaw ng dalawa mong "dimples" at mga singkit na mata. But I know God has a reason for everything and I know you are happy because you are with God right now. Madami man kaming friends mo na till now is still mourning for your loss but I know you are just around watching us. Hindi ko din masabi na ang daya mo kasi ang dami ko din pagkukulang sayo as a friend and a classmate. Nakaka-miss ang pagtawag mo sken ng "Aprilynnn" na sobrang pronounced na pronounced, kaw lang ang tumawag sken ng buo kong pangalan tapos ngayon wala na. Basta, we are still here for you, kahit minsan sobrang busy, hindi ka namin nakakalimutan. That’s a promise and we will never broke that. Your memories and our experiences together as Thomasians will remain forever.
Pouvez vous se reposer dans la paix. Merci de tout Jeric.

"Flashback"

(Ms. Lan, Kuya Raul, Ate Donna and Matteo)

Unexpectedly, after my teaching session with the kids at Victory I passed by the foodcourt of Robinson's Galleria. I am on my way to the washroom to freshen up cause I feel very exhausted. Suddenly, someone caught my attention. It was Ms. Lan, Matteo's road manager. I was a bit shy and excited when I saw her. After all, Ms. Lan was one of the good reason how I met my celebrity idol and now my friend Matteo. I immediately approached her. She was with her Mom. They attended a mass in Pasig and just decided to have a breakfast at Robinson's foodcourt.

I was overwhelmed with the fact that she still remembered me. She recalled that I was the one who toured and shoot a scene inside Matteo's house. I love to see her smile while remembering each scenes that we did that time. It is like I am going through again with one of the best episode of my life, spending one whole day with car racer and theater actor Matteo Guidicelli. It was like a big flashback. This is something I will never forget throughout my life. Ms. Lan even introduced me to her Mom and even told to her the dares me and Matteo did last July. Honestly, the moment I saw Ms. Lan I somehow realized that one of my biggest dream has already been fulfilled. It may sound impossible from the beginning but I made things happen because of my never-ending faith and prayers to God.

I've also had friendly conversation with her about Matteo. She told me that Matteo will be here this coming December and will stay here for good. He will continue his studies here and will not go back to Chicago. I know this decision would be very hard for Matteo but maybe he needs to give up something good for something better. Ms. Lan also mentioned that Matteo missed his family so much. This makes me sad. Don't worry Matteo, times flies past. It's like how many days and you'll be back here.

It was a happy feeling to see Ms. Lan again after my Dare Duo episode. Gosh! I miss Dare Duo a lot. I miss everything me and Matteo did that time. From visiting his house, eating "dinuguan" and pickles, playing Airsoft and doing some theater workshop, I so miss the entire experience. The feeling is unexplainable. So full of wonder and joy. This has been one of the best things that happen in my life. And I would like to thank all the people who work hard for this to make my dream come true. I owe everything to you guys. I like going back with every scenes. It makes me go gaga. It makes me smile. It drives me crazy. And because of everything, I felt very lucky.

Teacher April and Her Little Angels

My Mom was my very first teacher. Alam ko how much time ang binuhos nya sa akin when I was young para lang matutuhan ko ang bawat bagay at malaman ko ang tama sa mali. I'd still remember way back in Kindergarten when I'm about to deliver a speech as a valedictorian, sobrang haba ng ime-memorize ko. And during the graduation, she was right in front of the stage holding a copy of my speech, guiding me para lang hindi ko makalimutan yung lines. Alam ko sobrang kabado sya that time. I thanked you for that Mom. Because of my Mom's hardwork and determination sa pagtuturo sa akin ng mga values na dapat kong malaman about life, whenever they asked me if ano daw gusto ko when I grow up I always tell them, "I want to be a teacher". That has been the profession I've dreamed about nung bata pa ko. Ewan ko ba kung bakit nung nag-college ako my interest changed. But in one way or another, magbago man yung interest mo darating yung time na babalik at babalik ka pa din sa unang bagay na natutuhan mong mahalin at minsan mo pinangarap. I admit now, that was what I am feeling. And I am so glad I am making it real now, unti-unti ko na sya tinutupad.

I was very thankful to my friend Leo who gave me the chance to fulfill one of my biggest dreams, to be a teacher for kids. Nung una I was very nervous pa kasi I don't know what will be the kids reaction once they meet me but at the end of the day they welcomed me with happy faces. Sobrang overwhelming ng feeling. Kahit sobrang pagod ako pakiramdam ko nawala lahat yun when I saw them. They such a relief to me. Usually, we started the day with the kids doing some paperworks like yung nag-cocolor sila. We handed them a paper na may drawing about God and they began to put colors on it. Ang saya kasi you need to assist them one by one kasi hindi naman sila lahat marunong magsulat ng names nila. Kids were in the age of 4-7 years old. They were a mixed of boys and girls. They were all adorable. Most of them are playful and sobrang energetic. Patience is a virtue talaga. Then after that "praise and worship" na. We teach them prayer songs. We dance. We act. We jump. We shout. Nakakatanggal sya ng stress knowing na your doing this to help kids get close to God. Rewarding talaga sya sa pakiramdam. Sometimes kailangan mo din maki-jive sa mga moods ng mga kids kasi yung iba bigla nalang magta-tantrums or iiyak. I had this great experience yesterday when Tiffany, isa sa mga "fashionistang kid" bigla nalang umiyak. I was like I don't know what I'm going to do. Medyo nataranta ako. I tried to console her pero she still continued crying. I was asking naman the reason pero ayaw nya sabihin. Then I began to think. Naisip ko weakness ng mga kids yung books especially pag about family. So I grabbed a book and I started telling her the story. It's like a one-on-one storytelling. At first mahirap cause I was afraid baka hindi sya makinig pero nung nag-start na ko magbasa and I saw her wiping her tears and began listening to me, I can't describe what I feel that time. Nag-focus sya sa sinasabi ko and she's even giving her own opinion about the story and that made me smile. Magkakaiba talaga lahat ng bata, sometimes you need to adjust your emotions para maintindihan ka nila. It makes me happy din na ang bilis nila makuntento even in the smallest things. Yung tipong i-compliment mo lang sila parang kahit bad mood sila sandali lang magiging okay na ang lahat. May mga times din na mag-struggle ka talaga dahil hindi maiiwasan na may masasalit na "pasaway" na kahit anung gawin mo hinding-hindi makikinig sayo. Ang part na yun ang challenging talaga. Luckily, nasu-surpass naman namin yung mga ganung situation. I also observed na sobrang advanced na talaga ang mga kids din ngayon. They talk English well, minsan mahihiya ka pa kasi mas may accent pa sila sayo. Open na din sila sa mga modern gadgets and updated sila pagdating sa news. There's one kid pa nga dun who asked me to invite him on Facebook. Ang cool di ba? And one more, there's another kid din kahapon who cried because he was raising his hands kasi gusto nya sumagot sa question during "storytelling time". When the other teacher failed to call his name, he began to cry. His name was Joshua and he was a special child. He cried. He threw his stuff. Nung tinanung ko ba't sya umiiyak he told me he wanted to get the prize. After storytelling kasi may mga lined-up questions and once nasagot nila they'll get a toy or a prize. Sobrang nahirapan ako patahanin sya pero nung huli napatigil ko din. I gave him a green frog toy. Nung una ayaw pa nya tanggapin kaya sabi ko nalang na bigay nya sa brother nya and he was happy to hear that. Sometimes ang mga kids talaga sensitive din. But I like the fact they don't lie on what they feel. That's something I need to learn from them. Tinuturuan din namin sila gumawa ng mga crafts using recycled materials. Gumagawa sila ng bracelets, balloons at mga different accesories na iuuwi nila after ng day na yun to show to their parents. Sa mga ganung time talaga kailangan mo sila i-guide at tutukan na mabuti. You need to explain to them well the instructions. At yun din ang mga oras na sobrang maingay sila, panay tawag ng "teacher" na hindi mo alam kung sino uunahin mo. Nakakatawa pero minsan ako nalang gumagawa ng craft nila para matapos. Kasi pag nakita nila yung iba na tapos na and sila wala pang nasisimulan, they tend to panic so kailangan tulungan mo na talaga sila. Okay lang, kasi isang "smile" at "hug" lang nila sayo parang kumpleto na araw mo. Yung last part is what we called the "merienda time". We gave them some chips, chocolates and ang walang kamatayang Zest-O. We teach them din naman how to be organize. Alam nila na bawal magkalat, bawal magsalita when their mouth is full and mag-pray before they eat. I love doing this. I love being a teacher kasi hindi lang ako napapalapit sa mga kids pati kay God na din. I am starting to accept and know God through those kids. They help me to have faith in God and to do good things for God. Mas maganda na habang bata pa sila nakikilala na nila si God para paglaki nila sila na mismo ang tutulong para mas madaming tao pa ang makakilala kay God.

Finally, I am so proud to people who voluntarily give time to teach kids the value of life. Two-thumbs up for you guys! Lahat naman tayo alam kong busy at may iba't-ibang plans every Sunday but we still manage the time to be with the kids kahit sandali lang. I know the kids feel the same way for us! They're like our brothers and sisters na din. For me, sobrang fulfilling na work ito. The feeling is priceless. The experience is totally wonderful. And this is something I wanna do forever. I love being called "Teacher April" not because I feel like I'm gaining so much respect from them, but because the mere fact na you're teaching them, you're also learning from them. I will never get tired being called "Teacher April" and I will never give-up teaching and loving the kids. They're like my angels.

I Can't Get Over with 500 Days of Summer!

I'm off from work yesterday. I went home in Bulacan since I miss my family. I decided that since I don't have plans for my freaking "bitin" restday I'll go for a movie marathon. While I'm at the bus I already feel like I'm in a moviehouse or should I say moviebus. I've watched two movies already "Drag Me to Hell" and "Final Destination 5" while eating donuts and sipping iced coffee. I was trying to get a good sleep while I'm on my way home but because of the sound effects that surrounded the entire bus I decided to keep awake. I arrived at home already 3pm. I just ate "merienda" and started my third movie. I heard a lot of good feedbacks about "500 Days of Summer". At first, I don't have any idea what the film is all about till I watched it. And until now, I still can't get over with it. In one way or another, I somehow can relate with the lead actress (Zooey Deschanel) character.

Like what the movie tagline is this is a story of boy meets girl. Tom (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) is a greeting card writer who grew up believing that he'd never be truly happy until the day he met the one. This sounds very unique for a guy like him. Where can I find someone like Tom? However the girl, Summer Finn did not have the same belief. She only love two things. Her long dark hair and how she could cut it off and don't feel a thing. Hmmm..mysterious girl!

When I watched this film I felt like I sort of had the same belief like of Summer. As of this moment, I enjoy being single but I haven't seen a romance this touching since I saw Summer and Tom. They said being single means being lonely. Oooopps! I don't agree with that. When you're single. you can do a lot of stuff. You also fall in love. You also admire someone. You're also happy. What makes it different is the word "FREEDOM". There's a dialogue in this movie that I kinda like. Here it goes:

Mckenzie: So do you ahve a boyfriend?
Summer: No.
Mckenzie: Why not?
Summer: Because I don't want one.
Mckenzie: Come on, I don't believe that.
Summer: You don't believe that a woman could enjoy being free and independent?
Mckenzie: Are you a lesbian?
Summer: No I'm not a lesbian. I just, dont feel comfortable being anyone's girlfriend. I don't actually feel comfortable being anyone's anything.
Mckenzie: I don't know what you're talking about.
Summer: Really?
Mckenzie: Nope.
Summer: Ok, let me break it down for you.
Mckenzie: Break it down.
Summer: Ok. I like being on my own. I think relationships are messy and people's feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We're young, we live in one of the beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later.
Tom: What happens if you fall in love?
Summer: You don't believe that, do you?
Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.

Yo! All the single ladies. That's actually how Summer defines her life. No terms of endearment. No labels. No commitment, just simply going with the flow. Poor Tom. As for myself, I may be like Summer but there are things that I can't let go of nor deny with like the happy feeling when you're with someone. Sometimes it's good to start a relationship when you became friends rather than total strangers. Tom was hopelessly romantic but in the end, he did not end up with Summer nor Summer did not end up with Tom. This somehow contradicts my belief about faith when Tom mentioned that "coincidences really exists, there's no such thing as faith. Nothing was meant to be". I don't know why I had this too much belief in faith. Do I really have to hold on? I feel too confused about it. And with expectations vs. reality, it still reality that matters. I've really got a feeling that no matter how much you love a person there will come a time that you'll wake up and realize that he's not the one for you and you're not sure about that person till you meet the right one. Arrgghhh! Love really comes in different ways! Who cares about fairytales or cartoonish character in love? Tom and Summer will always be two different people with different ideas of a relationship, yet they remain lovable all the same. Well in the end, this is indeed not a love story. And talking about my own lovestory, who knows when will it start and how will it end. I just hope it will be beautiful.

JT Fever!

So weird that I've been attracted to this "Ilonggo guy". Ahahahaaah..feels like I'm going back to my high school days. Those were the times that you had a crush and you try to search all the information about this guy whether it is in Yahoo, Google, Friendster or Facebook. It's been a long time I haven't felt this and I feel like I am having one now. Funny but so helpful that it motivates me. Ahahahaaah..After I've watched their play last Saturday at PETA Theater entitled "Si Juan Tamad, Ang Dyablo at ang Limang Milyong Boto I kinda like him..his role..his name and his smile and of course the play itself! Wheeww! Do I really need to shout it out here?? Embarassing..well, it's just a crush, good for inspiration. Hope JT's not reading this or else I'll die..Ahahahaaah..This is just so making me blush..blush..blush..I feel like I was just on my teenage days having my "kilig" moments. Good thing I was able to grabbed some of his pictures during the play as my souvenir and for sure I'll be waiting for his next play. When would that be?? I can't wait to watch him again..Ahahahaa...JT's giving me butterflies in the stomach..so cool and I'm loving it!

..yuukicoh..a blast from the past!

Everytime I'm alone and I used to think of my college life it always reminds me of someone very special. So special that until now I haven't forgot that person yet. There's always one person in our life that no matter how we try to ignore them they will never get the hell out of our mind. That is because they made a big part in our life. I wanna share this beautiful feeling I experienced during my college days which until now I still can't completely get over it. Why? I really don't know...

***All About Yuuki***

There was a guy sitting down under the Alpha Phi Omega tree wearing a black shirt and a body bag Lacoste. It was around 5pm in the afternoon, I’m sure he is also waiting for his next class. Fifteen minutes later, he was then standing at the gym with his friends. He had this one-sided black hair with black eyebrows and a pair of chinito eyes. He barely smile. It looks like there is something bothering on his mind. Then suddenly they were going towards the gate, leaving the campus. It is either their class was cancelled or their professor is not around.

A week passed, it was the second semester of my being a 2nd year BS Math college student. It has been our routine that after class or while waiting for the next subject, we hang-out besides the gym stairs. We had been doing that for three years. Then came upon this guy again who caught my attention before during the first day of our second semester. He was now wearing his uniform, a white polo with his pants and of course his Lacoste body bag. He was standing beside me waiting for his friends. He looks very quiet. He often smile, the same guy I saw before except that I noticed he was wearing his Adidas shoes with dark blue and green stripes. One Monday morning at Federizo hall, we used to have our last subject held at the AVR. Before I went inside, I decided to go to the washroom. While passing on Rm. 210, a drafting room for students, it caught again my attention by this guy who was seriously and in full concentration finishing his piece which I think are letters of the alphabet in gothic form. So he was a drafting student.

Two weeks later, I haven’t had any glimpse of him within the campus. I started to worry as if he already stopped studying or he transferred until one day me and my friends decided to go the mall to check out some dress. That time, we are standing near the CD’s store when I saw him coming by on his blue shirt with a yellow tag. I was so surprised that I cannot react because it was me and my bestfriend who just knew about this. He passed by and I remember the song that was playing that time was “Burn” by Usher. When I try to look at his direction, he went to the videogame section of the mall and saw him just sitting beside his friend. From that day, I decided to called him “Yuuki”, for he looked like the older version of the child actor in ABS-CBN and on the Stick-O commercial who is “Yuuki Kadooka” because they resemble each other’s faces.

It was now the third semester. Everyone was busy because the subjects are damn hard and difficult. And then our break, the college intramurals. Later I have learned that all drafting students was transferred on the CIT building, three buildings away from us so the chances of seeing him is quite small. One morning, since it was the intramurals day, we were all gathered at the school arena which is the very closest place at the CIT bilding. It has been two consecutive days I have been seeing him sitting on the benches, most of the time alone. He still barely smile and just keeps on staring with the people that passed around him. I noticed that his body bag had this big Pucca key chain. That became his trademark.

Time ticks too fast then I reached my very last year in school. The fourth semester. And yet still clueless about him. It was enrollment day for the first semester and I woke up early to be on the first line. Luckily, there were few students waiting for their turn. Unexpectedly, I also saw him also on the same line, four people away from me. I was just alone that time cause my friends decided to enroll in the afternoon. I kept on staring at him. He is just the same guy I saw when I was second year. He is always serious, he is around 5′6 and his eyes looks very sleepy. The only thing that changed was his hair which was highlighted with dark-brown, his red body bag from Human, the Pucca keychain is still on it and his black Pony shoes. He was very simple and that indeed never changed as well. While we were on the last line wherein we just need to get the classcards, I was just sitting besides his chair and yet still do not have any idea who he is. But that is okay, that already brightened my day. It was also a blessing that every Friday they were at the gym for their P.E. class which is table tennis. We also had the same class that day so I used to see him every Friday. That was the time that I saw him smile and laughed as they play around. But there were times that he chose to sit around and just watch his classmates play. This were also the day where my bestfriend decided to take the courage to know him. My bestfriend was a very shy person but I owe everything to her. Finally, I got his name to one of his friend. I thought I would able to know something about him but no friendster, no chat account, not even included on one of his friends’ friendster lists. That makes me think how myterious he is, his actions, his attitude and his emotions that makes me feel eager to know him. Yeah, I don’t know what is on my mind that time but what they actually say is true that, “when you found someone yet he seems to be stranger to you, that doesn’t care anymore cause as long as you see him around, that would already puts a smile on your face and that completes your day”. This maybe weird, but I admit, I was too like that.

Here comes the last semester. Everyone was busy preparing for their graduation. I heard that he is also graduating that time. It was so sad. I haven’t got anything from him but a name. What does a name can do?! One day, we were done on our final exam in computer programming and as I leave the room, I saw them waiting outside for they were the next class. Then one night, somebody texted me that he found my number on the computer, on my resume’ which we made that day. I asked his name and his section as well as his course and found out that he was one of Yuuki’s classmate. I got his number. He replied so fast. Then we became friends. I learned some little facts from him, his plans and interests. We do share some funny moments in our life, the weirdest and coolest thing we’ve had but we never met. We are texting like we are just two rooms behind cause I saw him standing outside Rm. 210. He never recognized me, that is the saddest part because we are afraid to see each other that I might got rejected and that he might already been committed to someone which later I found out that it is true. But our friendship continued. We still talked. We even congratulated each other. I was always there to listen whenever he had conflict with his partner. Until, I decided to let go. The hardest and painful feeling I could never imagine. The decision I am not ready to do. We thanked each other and even had this text saying’ “friendship forever”. I haven’t regret that. I was also happy that things turned-out well even for a short-period of time. Everything that happen was unexpected and unexplainable. I thought he was just the guy sitting near at the Alpha Phi Omega tree but he has been the guy stucked in my head for four years cause even I got my first work we still had sometime to text each other but it never lasts till we completely lose communication and just found out that he still had with the same girl. I am happy for him and he knew that.

This is just one of the best lesson I have learned in life that “you cannot get everything you want but you could still be happy”. Life is not always filled with happy endings but it can teach you things that will help you grow and mature. This has been one of the best thing that happened in my life. I may not get the perfect ending like what other movies used to play but I got the weirdest story that knocked me off my feet. I am still looking forward of seeing him again. Maybe someday...

..out of the blue i created a poem entitled "VAIN"..

Yesterday, I can't explain what I'm feeling. At work, I was out of focus and merely "tulala". There are really days in our life that you've come to feel that and I hate that feeling so much. I tried to fight my emotions and I'm glad I was able to come up with a better mood. Thanks for the auxxes provided by my TM, at least I got the time to think...think..think..Good thing I was able to divert my gloomy emotions into writing. At the back of my tracker where we usually tag our sales I decided to write a poem. I just wrote whatever runs through my mind till I finished it. It was so weird that the title of the poem came up after I finished it. I even ran through my friends help on what title I am going to write down. Gladly, we came up with this one. Let my poem show what I am feeling yesterday. It is so hard but that's how life goes, unexpected and indeed filled with surprises. Here it goes:

***VAIN***

It started with a simple glance

That I'd never thought I'd be given a chance

Meeting you is like a dream

But when I see you it makes me wanna scream.

Your eyes sparkles like a sun

Your action seems like your always having fun

Your hair smells like a morning breeze

That indeed makes me freeze.

When you talk my heart beats fastly

And I feel though I'm very lucky

Whenever you smile I wanna stop the time

Since then I want you to be mine.

I know we both came from two different worlds

But you know what that makes me more strong

Loving you may sounds too impossible

But in the end, I believe we can be friends at all.

Whatever makes you happy

I'll accept it gladly

Although it damn hurts

At least I don't have regrets.

Whoever caught your eye

I hope she'll love you all her life

Cause I know you deserve the best

I wish she loves you to the fullest.

I'm always be there for you

You can count on me anytime you want to

I'm always at your side

Even things get tight.

Thank you for the wonderful feeling

An experience worth-remembering

Something I'll never forget

Till I reach death.

This is it. This is my poem. I just thought that when it comes to loving a person, you don't need to expect, you learn how to love without asking something in return. I know it may hurt so bad but in the end but at least you'll experience this wonderful feeling rather than not. And I don't feel sad about this, in fact, it makes me more strong. This motivates me more to go on with life.