Healing!

Finally, I can say I am trying to get over him. After a year, I am moving on-- for real. Acceptance is better. I thought I cannot do it. But when you get tired hoping, wishing and loving without getting any response, healing the broken heart came naturally. I also thought that upon moving on, it does not necessarily mean that you don't need to see or you have to avoid the object of your affection, you can do it to escape everything that you're feeling but in my case, I am surviving every single day even I'm seeing him or even having conversation with him. You'll get used to it. Feelings change and so people do. You'll just realize that in some point you LOVED person and now, YOU'RE DONE. It may sound negative but I guess it's really part of it. The beautiful things you saw on him suddenly vanished and you're now beginning to observe the imperfections and the full details. Yeah, hatred sucks. But you can't help it.  It helps-big time. I am now being honest to myself which I'm not lately. I am still hurting but I know I am on the edge of getting everything in the right place. This thing they called love really made me crazy at one time and now I am seeing the big picture that I am maturing. And most of all-healing.