Stop Whining!

So it's the end of my drama week. After all the crazy thoughts, teary-eyed appearance and out of my mind gestures, I'm better now. It really takes a week for me to get over this nasty feeling. I don't wanna feel this anymore. I hate it when you can't smile. No matter how everyone described their day as happy and cool, you still feel empty and hopeless. Nah...I don't want to experience it anymore. I guess the word "distance" contributed a lot. Plus my days of hibernating and just staying in my room, wallowing, watching "emo' movies and listening to heartbreaking songs also helps. My "me time". I know it's a bad idea to whine about those stuff, but I that helps me recover from the bad mood I had last week because of the unexpected things I've read and experienced. I'm glad it's over now. I can't say it will not happen again but I think I'm more ready now. It's like I'm having my midlife crisis where you can't figure out what you want and you feel so useless that you want to yell and burst out into tears. I can't really explain what I feel that time. Unpredictable. I now believe that everyone will reach a point in their life where they don't know what to do. You feel so messed up that you want to locked yourself on your room and stop breathing. I'm glad I can smile now. When I read my previous tweets, it is a reflection of a dumb girl who hated life for a week. But I learned my lesson now. See, I can put smiley faces in my tweets now. It's not bad to whine, it helps you get back in track and realize that everyday is a battle. You just have to make good choices. You also have to be wise in choosing the people you want to enter your life. Not all of them leaves a good mark, but no regrets, they help you for who become now. I also realized that in love, you really can't choose whom you love. No matter how you like/love the person, if he don't feel the same thing, it's nonsense. So, better enjoy life. Who knows the right one might just be around the corner waiting for the perfect moment. During the days that I feel so crazy, I'm glad I still have my family beside me. It's so comforting. And of course GOD, having conversation with him and venting out my feelings is very helpful. :)