Space

Lately, na-realize ko that I needed some space from almost everything to get my mind on track. I've been a mess this past few days. I felt like lahat ng ginagawa ko turned out to be a disaster. So I thought I give myself a break muna sa lahat ng bagay na nagpapa-stress at depress sa akin. At work, not a good start or last week. But it's not really a big problem pa namam kasi I still got loads of time para bumawi which I know magagawa ko naman. My family, still the same. And you know what, I felt I need a new inspiration as well. Feelings are beginning to fade. Hindi ko alam kung bakit but the "kilig" is no longer there compared before. I don't want the feelings to end but it comes out naturally. Sometimes you really need to get some space so you see how many people really care about you. Just a test of loyalty. This is hard to do in the first place but you have to. Or should I say I have to. Sometimes too much attachment will lost your capability to decide, cause you become so dependent to them that you forgot to stand on your own. You tend to neglect yourself as well and give most of your time to them. I need to learn how to love myself first before others. I need some thorough thinking and once I figure out what I want and whom I deserve to be, that's the time I can let things back to normal. As if nothing has change.