2012-"Finding Myself, What I want and What is Best for my Family"

Second day of year 2012. Well supposedly everyone should be making their own New Year's Resolution but I bet I'll pass this year. It is not because I can't stick to my lists of promises but I want everything done through actions rather than writing it down. Last New Year's eve, I was thinking what lies ahead for me for this year but one thing I figured out, I am responsible for whom I will be for this year. The decisions I am going to make, the path I am going to choose, the friends I will trust and the plans I am going to follow. It all depends on-ME. Whether I will be good or not, it is indeed up to me. Every year we always tell that we will make changes and that we learned from our past mistakes and so this year I am going to try my best to do that. The first step I need to do is to figure what I really want. I've been struggling the past few days asking myself what makes me feel happy, what profession I really want to pursue, should I leave the job I have now, do I need to go abroad to find another one or just settled here? Those questions still left unanswered. Yes I want changes but I don't know how to start and where to start it. One word to describe me now-lost and confused. Not a good time to start the year but I don't want to let those questions just keep on hanging. I am willing to take a risk. I am not afraid to try new things and be good at it. After all I'm an Arian and we are all born to be brave and courageous. What I only need now is some time and a little bit of mind setting and a piece of advice from my loved ones and I am sure I'll go through this. For the meantime, since it is year 2012, I am going to start my year with positivity and a lot of good perception towards everything. I have plans. So many plans that I want to accomplish and I'll do that step by step. There's no reason to rush. I'll take things slow. I know God will guide me every step of the way so there's nothing I should be scared of. I'll take every chances and work hard on it. I will be a better person this year 2012. I will have the job the I want and be contented with that. I will keep a good lifestyle. I am going to save a lot. I mean, save, save, save. I will do everything for my family. I'll keep in touch with my old friends. I'll love God everyday and thank you God for another year.