Bye Bye SleepyHead!

I am being business-minded today. I came up with a lot of business strategies. This has been the first day. I have created a multiply account that will show all the products we are selling. Mostly health and wellness from GFI, my networking company. I was really overwhelmed by the texts and responses I've received from different people whom I've tagged regarding Lean and Fab. So I decided to asked my friend D to be my business partner. Wow! Huge word. But I know with hardwork and faith we will make it and we will be real "businesswomen". I chose "Les Femmes" as our business name, it is a French word meaning "women". A and D will going to make a difference in the business world. It is 5:44 am now, November 7, the start of creating and building our dreams for our future. We don't want to be employees for the rest of our life. We will conquer the market with our products. Honestly, I am super broke right now, financially. Most of my savings were invested in network marketing. But I am looking for long-term goal, I know that the day will come all the money I've invested will work for me. I did not even know if I can send my brother now to college. It's his second semester this week and I don't have the money yet to pay for his tuition. Poor Me. Yeah. I know I'll find a solution about it. I don't easily give up and I never lose hope. I was also watching "The Social Network" a while ago, starred by Mark Zuckerberg, the creator of Facebook. I wanna be like him. I know I will be someday. Goodluck Les Femmes, this is a good beginning.

New Haircut

It has been two years I managed to take care of my long hair. But just recently, I decided to have a new haircut, shorter than I expected. I don't know, I felt that I need to do this. For some reason, maybe the fact that my inspiration is going on a different path now has been one of the factor. A lot things happened this past few days, mostly negative things and disappointments. So I guess this has been a good decision. Having my hair cut maybe the best way to let go of the bad things that I've experienced and have a good start. A brand new day for me where everything has been doing good and okay. I need to throw away all the negative vibes. The hair that I've got now was the same hair way back when I was in my previous company. I am loving my new look now and I was hoping this new haircut will bring so much luck to me. :)

He's With A New Girl Now:(

After the unforgettable movie date last Sunday, I just found out that SleepyHead's with a new girl now. Someone I know. Someone close to me. What was my first reaction? I am not that surprised when I heard about it because they've been a "tandem" already way back our Salliemae days. I'm a bit sad, yeah. But that's okay, maybe they were really meant to be together. I don't have the right to stop them. The weird thing about this was the girl used to text me asking for advices regarding her feelings for SleepyHead. I knew SleepyHead that much. His moodswings, interests and his favorite foods. I even told to the girl to buy him "Tortitas". That is his comfort food. While giving this advice, I don't feel any guilt compared before when I was acting bitchy around her. Acceptance is indeed the key word. No more bitterness. But honestly, I prayed and hoped that they're plans of going to LB will be canceled, however, it did not happen. They were really meant to go there to know each other well. I was so bad that time. But I am willing to accept the "karma", whatever it brings. Now they're both happy. Finally, I was able to say to the girl that I am happy for her. As for myself, I am in the process of just chilling out and enjoying every moment of my life. If SleepyHead was not really meant for me, I knew there's someone out there. Thanks SleepyHead for passing by and having you as my inspiration for a short time. Goodluck to your new love. I just wish that everything goes well between you and her:)

A MovieDate to Remember:)

Yesterdy, 10.10.10 was an unforgettable day for me. Kasi I never thought na for the very first time SleepyHead and I will go out for a movie. Nakakatawa kasi nagsimula lang toh sa isang post sa fb about sa akin na gusto ko manuod ng last full show. Tapos nagcomment sya at ayun sineryoso na namin yung post. He was so honest to admit na tight yung budget nya para lumabas. Ako din naman wasak na yung budget ko. Pero we still decided to go. It is very rare for a guy to na aminin na wala na syang pera or baka kapusin sya. Pero sya he managed to say that. That has been one of the things I liked about him, super straightforward. Ayun napagkasunduan namin na magkita kami ng 930pm. We both wanna watched "Legends of the Guardians" kaso pagdating namin sa Glorietta wala na early yung last full show. He's a fan pala of horror movies so we watched "Bangkok Haunted House". Tapos we both share sa mga expenses. He was the one who paid for the taxi pa nga. We bought nachos with gorund beef toppings and sour cream dip. We both hate popcorn. He was very gentleman. Nawala lahat ng negative impression ko sa kanya. Tama nga sabi nila na makikilala mo lang yung tao pag nakasama mo na sya. Sa work he's candid and puro kalokohan pero pag kasama mo na sya he's real serious. We talked about a lot of things about work and personal stuff. Ang cool nyang kasama. Sa moviehouse super kalmado naming dalawa. No awkward feelings as if we knew other na for so long. Ang bait nya and he was kind. Nag-enjoy naman kami sa movie kahit pano. When we went home bumaba kami sa PS to buy California Maki. Than naglakad lang kami pauwi habang magkausap. Madami din syang nakwento. Sana nga naging okay din yung impression nya sken. I was being myself all along. Walang pretentions. Kung ano ko, that's what I showed to him. Cause I want him to accept me for who I am. Masaya talaga ko. Hindi na ko umaasa na magkaroon pa ng second time pero if ever given the chance why not. Thanks SleepyHead for the time and effort. Super na-appreciate ko talaga toh:) Natapos ang one week vacation ko ng maayos at memorable. Speechless until now:)

I`m scared because suddenly it's clear how much he really means to me.

Maraming nangyari last week. May masaya. May malungkot. May sakto lang. Kaso may realization ako. With regards to my work, atp din ako. Nauna lang si Kuya. Hindi na naman ako nagulat. Mas okay na toh kesa naman ako nalang yung matira dun. Unexpected lahat ng mga nangyari last week. Hindi ako ganun kahanda. Kaya medyo nawindang din ako. Seven agents nalang per team ang natira. I am not that worried kasi may bibigay naman na malilipatan ng account and we still have our salary for two cut-offs. Still safe pa din. Ewan ko ba mas namublema pa ko kay SleepyHead. Now that we are getting closer and closer and we are starting to know each other ngayon pa nangyari toh. Nakakainis naman. Wrong timing. Ngayon pa na nakikita ko na kahit paano we get along na and okay na kami. Ba't kasi nangyari pa toh? If there's one person na mami-miss ko, sya talaga yun. The mere fact na sya yung reason why I enjoyed my shift every night and kung bakit ako inspired ngayon, bigla nalang mawawala. I was one of her trusted companion, alam ko yun. When he heard about the news, hindi rin nya matanggap. Mas nalungkot ka pa sya kesa sa akin. Ako nga medyo cool pa pero sa kanya ayaw pa rin mag-sink in na atp din ako. Sabi pa nya ang galing ko daw, ang ganda ng stats ko hindi daw ako dapat maalis kaso nung pinakita ko yung disclosure letter ayun I saw from his face yung sadness. Kilala ko pa naman sya pag masaya at malungkot. Mas nag-worry pa sya na matatanggal ako kesa sa batchmate nya na kasama nya from very start sa PS. Na-touched talaga ako ng sobra. Grabe. Hindi ko maipaliwanag na kahit ganun pala importante din ako sa kanya. Hindi yun ganun ka-vocal pero you'll see it from his eyes. Namrublema tuloy ako lalo nung makita ko syang ganun. They started the re-profiling last week and super confused ako kya naman kung anu-anung account sinabi ko. Tapos ngayon nahihirapan akong magpa-cancel. Haissstt..I am beginning to hate this. I'll be having my interview later for HireRight. Before the end of my Friday shift which will be the last day I'll be taking calls, may moment pa kami ni SleepyHead. May team building sila together with the other commcoaches so hindi sya makakasama sa breakfast namin. Bago sya umalis, pinuntahan muna nya ako. When he saw me, he gave me this "sad stare'" tapos sabi nya "bye na". I don't know how to react pero sobrang malungkot din ako that time. He opened his arms to hugged me. Grabe sobrang tight ng hug nya. Mami-miss ko yun. Madalas akong i-hug nun. Kahit ganun sya sweet naman yun. Tsaka madalas din nya hawakan kamay ko tapos magkukulitan kami. Parang gusto kong umiyak that time. Sobra. Naramdaman ko talaga na gusto ko na sya kahit super opposite mga interests namin at magkaiba kami ng pananaw sa buhay. Pag magkasama kami super iba sya. Kahit isip-bata sya hindi naman nya pinasakit ulo ko. Napaka-honest nya unlike yung ibang other guys na nakilala ko. Kapag may ayaw sya sinasabi nya agad. Now pa lang nami-miss ko na sya. Imposible ng magkita kami everyday. Hindi ko pa alam kung sang account ako matatanggap. Sana nga same building kaso malabo pa. Bahala na. Ang alam ko lang he really means a lot to me now. Sana lang we can still keep in touch. Pinky promise, SleepyHead:)