I Chose Friendship.

Chuck is back my system. After how many weeks of not seeing him, having no conversations with him and totally no communication, I guess he's back now in my life as my friend. Ang galing din ng foundation ng friendship namin na despite of the gaps before andito pa din kami. Mas okay na kami ng ganito kesa parehas kami mawala sa isa't-isa. I'd still rather choose friendship. I cannot afford to lose it. This past few days balik kami sa mga good moments namin as friends. Nakakatuwa parang walang nagbago. It was so nice to know that we still run for each other during rough times. Nung may problem sya and so frustrated he texted me right away and we talked. He poured down his emotions and I was there beside him. He told me everything. I was there to cheer him up and say that everything will going to be fine. And I was same with him. Bumabalik ulit kami sa dati. Nawala na yung fear ko dati after ko i-reveal yung feelings ko sa kanya. Nagulat nalang di ako sa sarili ko na ang bilis ko makapag-cope up. After hoping na we can be more than friends, ngayon okay na lahat. Acceptance cguro talaga. Napansin ko nga parang yung feelings ko for him dissapeared nalang bigla. It is not intense anymore. Yung tipong kahit kasama ko sya wala na yung dating kilig. Ganun siguro talaga. I don't wanna conclude that I moved on already. Sabihin nalang natin na I'm coping. It is still a process pa din after all. Last night at the concert magkatabi pa kami and I was just observing if anu mafi-feel ko. Wala naman. Super natural. He's still important to me. Hindi mawawala yun. But I believe we are really bound to be friends lang talaga and I am okay with it. Sa una lang mahirap pero nung nagtagal nasanay nalang din ako. Ang weird nga eh. But the fact that I am happy now kung anu meron kami kuntento na ko dun. :)