Silence Means Something

Unusual. I really don't know how to define it. The feeling sucks. It has been eight days of silence. And it makes me freak out! What happened? I thought everything will still be the same but the way things are going on now I can say, You must have changed and it's breaking me into pieces. Knowing you're always there for me but in just a snap I felt like I am beginning to lose the most important person of my life now. I guess, it is indeed my fault. Even you don't say it I knew there's this sort of a gap being created. It is like I am not that much prepare for it. I cannot blame you. You are innocent after all. It is my heart that choose you. The feeling is natural. I am just human and I cannot resist the fact that I do fall in love. Maybe at the wrong time. But how will I know if when will be the perfect time if I didn't try? If I did not do that embarrassing stuff. Admit it or not, I was so happy that I was able to say it. And I mean it so much. I just really don't know why suddenly you were like cold and you're lost in nowhere. I just really can't explain. I know something in you has changed. I know it's not okay to be okay but I'll try my best. Maybe I am going to miss the times we are together joking around and sharing cool moments but I have to do this. As early as possible. I just hope you don't use silence as an escape from me for you don't have to worry cause I know we will come at this situation. I don't have anything against you. It's just that I can't afford to lose you now. Give me more time. Then I'll be done. Whatever happen, thank you for everything. In one way or another you inspired me and brought changes in my life even in short period of time. Our friendship will still last, I know. Again, thank you for showing and helping me get closer to GOD. That is one thing I'll never forget. :)