It is Chuck's Week Last Week:)

I had a super crazy week last week. Define craziness. It is a combination of being a brave soul, small cup of stupidity, one liter of honesty and a pail of tears. Ooops! Before I forgot add some tablespoon of confusion with one bowl of depression. All emotions at stake last week. It started Monday when I did a very courageous act. Well, an act of confession that I never thought I'll do. No regrets. That's okay. At least now I know. It is really hard when you wanna tell something but you're not sure of or rather you're afraid that it may ruin everything. Friendship for example. However, if you will not do that you'll be just like that for the rest of your life. Hoping. Wondering. Clueless. And most of all, scared. Why scared? Because you'll never know if your feeling the right thing or it is better left unsaid. Weirdo. When you're really in-love, you tend to lose the proper mind setting. You can't think wise. You can't eat properly. You can't sleep well. You can't concentrate on your work. Poor me.

Just because I was so determined to tell to that person that I liked him I guess it made the situation more predictable and light. All confusions answered. After sending that letter that confessed all my true feelings for that guy, everything is clear now. That first, we are only bound to be friends. Second, that this is not the perfect time for that feelings but he is open for the possibilites, maybe tomorrow or the days after. And third, that despite everything that I did he did not change after all. He has still been the same guy I knew. He has still been the good friend I always run to whenever I have a problem. He has still been the business partner ready to give you updates and share you some good points regarding our business world. And he has still been my church mate who has this very big faith in GOD. My realization goes like this. I was very happy with the result and also thankful that he was open-minded with the fact that I am falling for him. He never made anything that will insult and hurt my feelings. Thank you so much GOD. This is one thing that I am afraid of that after confessing my feelings he will avoid me but none of it happen and I am very much contented with that. As the new chapter unfolds, I believe that, "What you want is not always what you get. But in the end, what you get is better than what you wanted. "The Lord satisfies your desires with good things." -Psalm 103:". Thanks to you Chuck for the doses of inspiration I am feeling every single day. And to GOD, you are so good and incomparable. :)