Space

Lately, na-realize ko that I needed some space from almost everything to get my mind on track. I've been a mess this past few days. I felt like lahat ng ginagawa ko turned out to be a disaster. So I thought I give myself a break muna sa lahat ng bagay na nagpapa-stress at depress sa akin. At work, not a good start or last week. But it's not really a big problem pa namam kasi I still got loads of time para bumawi which I know magagawa ko naman. My family, still the same. And you know what, I felt I need a new inspiration as well. Feelings are beginning to fade. Hindi ko alam kung bakit but the "kilig" is no longer there compared before. I don't want the feelings to end but it comes out naturally. Sometimes you really need to get some space so you see how many people really care about you. Just a test of loyalty. This is hard to do in the first place but you have to. Or should I say I have to. Sometimes too much attachment will lost your capability to decide, cause you become so dependent to them that you forgot to stand on your own. You tend to neglect yourself as well and give most of your time to them. I need to learn how to love myself first before others. I need some thorough thinking and once I figure out what I want and whom I deserve to be, that's the time I can let things back to normal. As if nothing has change.

HangOver 1,2,3...

I heard this movie for quite sometime but did not make an effort to watch it. Not when the 3rd installment was about to air this month. My bro downloaded HangOver 1 and 2 last weekend and I watched it. It was hilarious. I had this sort of regret that I didn't watch it before in the cinema. It was a total wreck. I love the casts and the flow of the story. And I think I kinda fell in-lobe with Phil here, played by Bradley Cooper. He was a hunk. Totally gorgeous. I enjoyed watching it especially the part 2 which was taken in Bangkok. There has been a lot of crazy scenes. Allen is such a retard and Stu is very emotional. I hate Chow whenever he laugh cause it seems like he's trying to bully/tease you. He's a bitch. I did watch the 3rd installment today and it was okay. The story was different from the last two sequels. They say it's the last. But I don't think so cause at the end of the movie, somehow they got drunk again and did not remember anything. The end of third sequel there. I guess I'm seeing Bradley Cooper again. I did experience to get a hang-over but not as pathetic as what they have. :)

More than friends. Less than lovers. ????

I checked this website na super in demand ngayon because it allows you to vent out your heartaches, love problems and good love stories. I got curious so I browsed the site. Yung website is wotwentwrong.com. Grabe ang daming posts and different articles about love and relationships. Pero one article caught my attention. Yung "more than friends, less than lovers". I got this weird heartbeat when I sawthis article. But to my surprise, when I'm about to read it, the connection got fired up. And so I decided to make my own.

Ang hirap i-define ng phrase na ito. Very confusing and at the same time kinda depressing. I don't know if I got hit by this article personally or I just wanna express my opinion. Okay, let me start. A guy and a girl seems to be very close. They shared each others stuff. They go out together. They talk a lot. They with each other everyday. They share plans about their future. They have other friends din naman. Pero pag sila na ang magkasama, everyone thought na may something na iba sa kanila. We don't know kung anu yun pero that has a deeper meaning. Cge just to set things straight, akala ng lahat "sila". What we don't get is katulad lang naman sila ng ibang friends nila. The fact na magkasama sila parati doesn't mean na "sila". Pwede din namang nasanay na lang sila na i-treat ang isa't-isa sa ganung paraan. Walang malisya sa kanila pero sa iba meron. May mga instances din na they were seen together having lunch/breakfast/dinner or even brunch. In our time, hindi ba pwedeng mag-lunchng sabay ang isang girl or boy? Were adult now. Can we think more mature? Buti nalang may mga katulad ni girl at boy na hindi affected whatever other people say. They may not know where they both stand but at least they're being cool with it. Smilin' around as if they don't care. But for others, kinda annoying cause hindi nila ma-sort out if si girl and boy were just acting innocent or dedma lang talaga. Whatever! Kelan nga ba nasasabing "more than friends, less than lovers"? Siguro pag yung actions nila and treatment with each other is lumagpas na sa boundary ng pagiging friends. Akala nila normal pa din ang lahat not knowing na they treating each other na pala so special that others see it differently pero sa kanila naging routinary nalang. We know naman how friends adore each other's companion pero pag sila na ang nag-express, parang may sarili silang mundo. They had their own language na sila lang ang nakakaintindi. Too much care and concern. Daig pa nila ang nasa isang relationship kung kumilos. Pero again,hindi "sila". Sobra-sobrang friendship pero pag love ang pinag-usapan they shut their mouth. Kasi hindi rin nila ma-explain. Kasknga hindi sila aware na ganun na pala. In the first place, they never discuss it and they don't mind. They're just okay with it. Wala naman silang nasasaktan. Yun ay kung wala talaga. Ewan natin. To cut the chase, hindi talaga "sila". They're not lovers. The guy's not courting the girl and the girl just sees the guy as her closest guy friend. Yun talaga. They can have a crush with anyone they want. The guy can flirt with other girls and it's fine with the girl. So as the girl can date another guy and the guy is just good with it. No commitment involve other than friendship. When one gets hurt, they're still back with each others arms then back to the same routine. That's how their life goes. We live in a crazy and complicated world and so they were. Better to leave them alone cause they're grown-ups. They know what their doing and where they headed. If one fall in-love with the other, it's always their choice. If they suffer, they'll handle that or so endure it. Hindi lahat ng nasa ganitong situation succeed, some got their luck, others just move on. Kung san man sila papunta or they just remain friends forever, they'll deal with it. Sinabi lang naman natin kung anu ang nakikita natin sa kanila. It's up to them. I really hate to explain this phrase kasi it's going nowhere but I'm glad I get to burst out my opinion.

Retracted

Last Wednesday, I made a tough decision to retract my resignation. Ewan ko ba pero feeling ko kasi hindi pa ito yung tamang time to leave the company. I know that I have unsettled business pa pero more than ramdam ko talaga na hindi pa ko pwedeng umalis. I don't know what the reason is pero instinct lang. Maraming natuwa when they found out that I'm going to stay. Syempre na-touched ako cause I see how many people look after me. Sabi ko nga, when I became an OIC I got the respect I never expected. And happy na ako dun. Pero syempre my plans of going abroad is still there pa naman, until further pa nga lang. Kaso this past few days I am having this big confusion na parang gusto ko ng umalis. Ang gulo talaga. Not really a regret that I retracted. It's more of realization where I should be headed. My mind saying something and my heart goes the other way. I've been thinking of it so closely now that I wanna make the next decision firm. Alam ko malapit ng dumating yung point na yun cause I'm beginning to solve the puzzle, just mere pieces and it's all done. For the meantime, I'll continue to do my work. Of course I still love my job. Wala namang nagbago. It's just that there will come a point wherein you need to choose on something you want versus on something you need. I'm almost on the edge of figuring it out. 

Walk In The Ocean

I was thinking of a good song to listen now. And I remember the song sang by Haley James Scott in one of the episode of One Tree Hill Season 8. I love her version. Originally, it was sung by Toad Sprockets but her rendition is the best. Plus the meaning of the lyrics is so perfect. I can't help but reminisce good One Tree Hill moments. :)

Happy Birthday Sean!

Fully-booked ang schedule ko last weekend. From spending time at Nawol's House to side tripping at Sean's birthday party (Ilowa's son). The entire PIT is invited so I joined them. Hindi naman ako nagtagal. Nagpakita lang then umuwi na din. I miss attending children's party. The venue was good and the food syempre. We took a lot of pictures with my team. Reunited moment din with some of the Kargador's. And si Sup Richelle feel na feel ang pagiging nanay kay Uno. Tabachingching.  :)

Nawol's House Part 2

We spent the whole weekend last week at Nawol's house. It's my second time going there and of course were all excited. It's like our second home. Awwtzz.. The usual ang dami ulit food, videoke session, kumakanta na ko ngayon kahit pangit ang boses and mawawala ba naman ang inuman session. What' surprising about this day is that naka-tatlong tagay lang ako. I'm not in the mood to drink then Sunday morning nagkasakit pa ako. We played "bingo", bago yun ha! Hindi din mawawala ang mga crazy stuff. We are not aiming for a super perfect restday. Yung tipong magkakasama kami and were having a good laugh okay na. Hindi na nga kami napapaghiwalay, almost everyday na kaming ganito. I'm just happy I've met friends like them. I had nothing to say but good words. Naks! Thank you GOD for letting me know each of them. I'm lucky. :)