Ask A Friend, "Me" Time, Reflect and Pray

When things go wrong and you feel like you did your best but never gain the result your pining for, just keep it calm and cool. That only means there's something much better waiting for you. Frustrations and worries makes us more human but sometimes we need to learn how to overcome it and put in mind that life is so meaningful to be wasted for such kinds of emotions. It is okay to feel frustrated, down and even heartbroken but there's always an end for those feelings. You can wallow for a day or two then go out and get a life. After all, everyone experience the same thing you have. Life is not perfect. There's ups and downs. There's problems, conflicts and even struggles everywhere you go. Life doesn't come in an easy access. It is you who will make it feel easier. There's a lot of options you can do when things go tough and you don't feel like you no longer belong. Call your bestest friend and ask for advice. An advice from a person who knows you better is the best capsule but of course if you ask them also be ready to listen. There's no point of asking then still doing the same stupid thing you know will not help you. You can also go to a place wherein you can think clearly for you to weigh your decisions and lift your mood. Sometimes what we need is some sort of a "me" time. It helps big time especially for a mind that is not going nowhere. Reflecting is another option you can do. Think of the things you did in the past and see if it cause major changes in your life positively or not. The old version of you will always be a good way to check if you're heading the right path or you were stucked in your old self with left nothing but your ego and pride. And lastly, when you feel hopeless and you feel like you have no one to turn to, prayer is the best answer. Life can be so hard most of the time but as long as you know how to pray and talk to HIM, everything will going to be fine. God gives us answers to our numerous problems. When times we almost forget Him, He is still there standing beside us and guarding us in our decisions. We are very unfair to Him almost all the time but He is very patient to us. He always know what's best for us. Life is not complete without Him. Do not forget to pray. Life is beautiful because of Him. Thank you God. :)

Bucket Lists

Ever wonder the things you want to do that you haven't tried yet or want to do it all over again because it makes you feel happy and fulfilled as a person? I have my own bucket lists that I wrote down here that will serve me as a guide that in life I need to do certain things in order to come up with a better version of myself. They say experience is the best teacher. I wholeheartedly believe that. So let me share some of the things I have in my bucket lists.

-- Try bungee jumping but with a friend. I am really afraid of heights and bungee jumping might help me overcome that fear. But I am only going to do it with a friend. I am big time scared doing it all alone. I might have a heart attack. At least a companion will boost my confidence.

-- Finish a novel/book. I have been trying to do this for how many years already but still unable to finish with a good one. I always have good beginnings then I get lazy or I tend to lose interest when I am in the middle part of the story and keep it hanging till my brother reformat my PC and have everything deleted without having a back-up copy.

-- Adopt a child. I love kids very much. I have a big heart for them especially those that were abandoned by their parents. I know how hard for a child to grow up without their parents so I want them to have a family. I want to teach, raise and love them as my own sibling.

-- I want to have a scrapbook of my own photos wherein I am wearing different dresses, blouses, jeans and cool outfits. I am always on the safe side when it comes to fashion so I hope one day I can try to have a collection of my own pictures seeing myself not afraid of doing something that is out of my comfort zone. I love flats and jeans so it will be new if someone will caught me wearing heels, skirts and even dresses. A day of doing that is not quite bad.

-- Travel alone. Whenever I go out, I always have my brother or my friends in me. I want to experience one time to travel alone without knowing where you headed and just relying where your feet will take you. I know it is scared to feel lost and don't know where to go but sometimes it is also good if you think like not knowing the right directions can also be fun. Whether you ride a jeep, bus or a tricycle it is also the best way of finding yourself.

-- Be part of a theater play. I am not wishing to be the lead star but I want to try being part of a theater play and get the feeling of acting in front of a lot of people. They say it is very fulfilling so I want to experience it. I've done it once at PETA with Matteo but for this time I want a real play where I have a role, wearing costume and delivering my lines.

-- I want to have a collection of all novels written by Nicholas Sparks. He is an interesting author and having all his books lined up in my shelf is already an achievement. He had brilliant ideas and know how to capture the mind and heart of the readers.

-- I want to know how to bake. My Mom is a good cook and I don't know why I did not get her talent in cooking. I adore chocolates, pastries and cakes and I want to come up with my own.

-- Walk in the beach and build a sandcastle. I am not a fan of going to the beach and getting a tan or go swimming cause most of the time I'd rather stay at home and sleep. A lazy person but that sometimes makes my day. It can be very relaxing walking in the beach barefooted or building a sand castle.

--Play basketball in a real court. I'm a basketball fan even before but never had the chance to throw a ball in a real court where popular basketball players usually play.

-- Try hosting. When I was in college, I want to be a vj. I love talking about different things and giving my own opinion. It's just that I haven't tried that in a big crowd.

--Curl my hair. I keep my hair straight for 26 years and I wonder how I look if I curl it. I am very conscious when it comes to my hair so curling it will be a big risk.

-- Meet Saab Magalona. For me Saab is a fashion icon. Although I haven't meet her personally I think she have an interesting personality. I always checked her blogs for some updates and I love the way she express herself through her blogs.

--Date a stranger. I know it'll be risky dating someone you don't really know but if knowing your limitations can be cool as though you're just going out with a friend. I don't know how it feels be going out with someone you just met and don't have any idea whether you share the same interests or not. I know it will freak me out but it's still worth a try.

-- Learn photography. Most of my friends are so hooked up in photography. I know the reason why so I want to learn good techniques in capturing photos. But of course, I need to have a good camera. Photography is not really my forte but who knows I can still be good at this!

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These are some of the things I have in my mind right now that I want to do. No specific time frame but I'll try my best to fulfill each items on my lists. I hope I can be able to crossed it all out by the end of this year. But wait there's more. My bucket lists part 2 still on the way which means more adventures to come!:)

It Was Always Just A Dream

Does it happen to you that you always dream of the same person over and over again? That when you wake up you will tell to yourself "It was him/her again" and you will scratched your head without knowing the answer. I experienced that for four days in a row already. Seeing the same person in my dream almost everyday. I was confused cause I am not really thinking of that person everyday, yeah, maybe sometimes but surprisingly him always in my dream is totally unexplainable. Yeah, "him". I do not know how it happens cause my definition of dream is that it is a reflection of your life, the things you do, your fears which usually comes in symbols like when you see monsters or zombies in your dream that means you are afraid of something or if one of your teeth fall out that someone in the family maybe in danger. Very weird and a bit scary. But what is the meaning if someone you care about always appear in your dream? Maybe because you can't get that person out of your head. One good reason. But why everyday? I searched Google and found the answer. It was indicated there that having a certain person appear in your dream every day suggests that you are thinking and day-dreaming about that person which is closely true because when I sleep I used to think of that person. But according to Google it means nothing about that person's dreams, thoughts or feelings. Our dreams take place within our own mind, just as our thoughts and feelings take place inside us. Our dreams do not affect anyone else's dreams, and their dreams have no affect on us. Our subconscious is obviously concerned by this person, either for good or ill. The fact that I remember the person I dream about means that it is a lucid dream. I kinda like this explanation that if you see the same person in your dreams then more often than not it means you are thinking deeply about that person. Or that person is thinking of you. How I wish! It could mean that you are also in love with that person. Well, I don't know yet. It could also denote that if you have a problem that you cannot find the answer, then probably the person you see in your dream can be the one with the solution or answer to that problem and there you may have to contact the person. In the same way it could also mean that person needs your help in one way or another. I guess everything is clearer now. So if I stopped thinking of that person he will no longer come out in my dream. Oh, that is too bad. I think I choose to have him in my dream everyday instead of not seeing him cause that is crazy. At least it happens in dreams. Well, dreams are far from reality. Having him in my dreams is quite interesting already. :)

Prints

Lately, I observed myself getting hooked up with prints. I am talking about dresses, shirts and blouses. I am always on the plain side before loving the color gray but I think I am having some kind of transformation now. Prints is now in my lists. Last week I got the bear and heart prints on my closet as I bought it in a thrift store near us and wore it in the office. Yesterday, I bought another three sets of cute blouses on circles, squares, heart and cloudy prints from Fab, Whatever and Genevieve Gozum. I guess I ' slowly getting out of my shell when it comes to fashion. I'm always on the safe side. Still in jeans most of the time and even flats. Now, I'm beginning to reinvent which I know is a good choice. After all, prints give me an impression of being happy, cool and a happy-go-lucky person. I am scared to set up a different style because of criticisms but now that I am having good words from others because of it I think I should just continue trying to reinvent myself step by step. I am loving prints now but still adore the classy mode of fashion. :)

Euna

I have been fascinated with kids ever since. I love being with them and carrying them in my arms. I love when they laugh at simple things and cry like asking for attention. My cousin Bryan already have a kid. A very lovely and bubbly girl. Her name is Euna. Lately, she has been our favorite because of her mannerisms, her smile and how she makes us laugh. She loves going out, riding bikes, eating Champola and watching Tom and Jerry. Yesterday, my Uncle brought her to our house. We had so much fun chasing her and teaching her how to dance. We gave her ice cream and started eating. I brought her to my room and put on some bracelets and necklaces to look like a fashionista. I even placed a bandana on her head. She never complain. She loved everytime I change her accessories. She even tried to use my eye curler as if she knows how to use it. I know this kid has a big potential once she grows up. She is an observer and a very hyper little girl. No wonder my Aunt gets really tired taking care of her. I miss my cousin Bryan cause he is working abroad now. I promised to him that I look after his child. After all, I am also Euna's godmother so she is also part of my responsibility. I just hope she will grow up as a nice, smart kid who always listen to her Lolo and Lola. :)

25 + 1

I celebrated my 26th birthday yesterday. I celebrated half of my day at the office with all of my friends and teammates greeted me and the rest of the day at home. It's Maundy Thursday so we decided not to cook any special food at all maybe after Holy Week I'll be having my post celebration still at home. I received a lot of phone messages and got almost 71 Facebook greetings from friends and even relatives. I am happy while reading each messages knowing that a lot of them remember you in your very own special day. I don't have any plans for this day. I just bought an ice cream and ate Koko Crunch with Fresh Milk then surf the net till I fell asleep. Now, I am 26 years old and still feels so young. A lot of them told I don't really look 26 maybe because of my height and skinny figure. Thanks to them! Ahaha.. But of course, I am more mature and responsible now. I maybe childish in some ways but the lady version of me already come out of her shell. I have a new vision now on how to deal with life and its difficulties. I became a risk-taker in some situations and not afraid now to stand in my own views. I still have this very conservative lifestyle but not scared to experience bunch of adventures that will unleash my potentials. Wow! A very huge word to describe it. Physically, I'm still the same except that I learn now at least how to put my make up on and dress well. I guess I now know how to face life and overcome my flaws. But I still love Disney characters! I am still single now, well, not an issue to me but I am just chilling out. I am loving my life now and every pieces of it. Every person I meet each of my life serves an inspiration to me. Some of my fiends told me I should have a family and a kid now but I am not in a rush. It is all about perfect timing plus the fact that in my mind and in my heart I am not really ready to settle down. The only thing I care about now is how to settle my priorities that is my work and my family cause I believe if I can do those things right the rest will follow. Age is just a number but what matters most is how you spend it. Yes I am 26 years old now and because of it am I very thankful to GOD for giving me another blessed year. :)

My New B-By!

Last Monday, Toretz and I decided to meet at Robinson's Galleria. I finally bought her Blackberry Playbook. Of course, in a discounted price. I am planning to buy this from the moment she brought it to the office. I love the features. I have it now with me. My B-by's name is Chuck. Ahaha. Now, I have more chances to capture good moments with my friends and family. Thanks Toretz. I am loving my B-by Channing now!:)