Shooppiiiiinnngggg!

Yesterday, I went to Robinson's Galleria after my shift to buy my brother a black dog tag. He's been bragging me about it for the past few days. I went to Genevieve Gozum and bought one and found out that there is a mall wide sale. I thought of strolling around. So I went to the ladies department store and saw most of the items were 30% to 50% discounted. I can't resists the feeling of not buying one so I grabbed one blouse. It cost P899. I brought it back to the stall where it was placed and try to visit some shops. I went inside the Hip Culture and saw this long sleeved pink top. The designs were all about ribbons and there is also a white lace on the neck side. I bought it. The original price before is P875 and I got it for only P350 and it is really worth the price. It is cute and comfy. I also bought my Dad a plain white shirt with John Lennon's face in front of the shirt and my Mom two different spaghetti strapped blouse. By the way, she liked it a lot. I also bought my brother a hair wax from Bench. I was going over and over on the stall where I saw the blouse worth P899. It was from the Candy boutique. When I went back I saw that there's been a sticker marked as 10% discount so I grabbed it. I know it doesn't sound practical buying that blouse but I can't recall when was the last time I bought a blouse that is expensive like that. In the end, I still bought it. Yeah, but I never tell my Mom the real price or else I'll be grounded. One thing I realized yesterday is that I am not selfish anymore. Before I used to buy things only for myself without thinking my family. Now, I felt more than happy that aside from myself buying things I needed I was also to buy something for my Mom, Dad and my little brother. The feeling is unexplainable especially when you saw them smiling and appreciating the things you buy for them. I don't do this often but now it gives me a feeling of contentment. I don't care how much I spent. I am so happy seeing them happy as well. The feeling is indeed priceless. Thanks to the mall wide sale. I am improving now as a daughter. I know I've gone a long way already. At least I know now that small things and gestures matters a lot.

Toretz Syndrome!

One of my closest friend at work decided to leave the company for good due to one reason: she is not happy anymore. I am not happy too but then as I said in my previous blog posted last week I still need this job. Toretz and I do not really get along that easily during the start of the training. I was the shy and quiet type while she's the opposite. She seems to be hyper, happy and talkative all the time. She never runs out of story. She was also the first person that I trusted telling her the struggles I had and my family last year. We both love GOD. We shared interests. I am not a fan of Starbucks but she still made me go there after our shift to get a sip of Chocolate Chip and our favorite Clubhouse. She has been my new movie buddy. We watched "The Breaking Dawn and The Vow". We talked about my stupid crazy lovelife. We both have messed up lovelife. We have been seatmates from the time we were endorsed to operations up to now. We always sing "Someone Like You" by Adele and had the last song syndrome for about a month. We are both pathetic sometimes. I even bought her Ipod. She always called me in my last name and have this strong loud voice. She can be a megaphone queen. She discussed things with sense and intelligence. She valued her pride and opinion very much. A very brave strong woman. However, lipstick and mirrors are some of her weakness. She can't start her work without her lipstick and her mirror on her side. That was her everyday routine. She adores the look alike of Chris Tiu in the office and so "kilig" whenever he passed by. You can't underestimate her for she is have good communication skills. She laughs as if it is the end of the world and she always have this mannerisms as if she was electrocuted. Very fun to be with and super crazy! When you're with her, you can be yourself all the time and she will just accept you the way you are, no pretentious at all.

I am so sad that she needs to move to another company. More than a hockey rival, I am sad we don't have much time to hang out and share stories now. She was the first person I used to share my dreams and my problems. Of course, friendship never ends. It still goes on. I am happy and thankful to GOD that I've met someone like Toretz, she's a good friend and my little sister. I'm happy with her decision. I just hope she can cope up with her separation anxiety. No matter what I am always be here for her. Thanks Toretz for everything. :) Ooopsss..before I forgot we have a surprise for her! I bought Hallmark cards as a remembrance.

Twix and Skittles

I am always sleepy at work this past few days due to shifting of schedules. I discovered my new comfort food that keeps me awake all the time. Twix and Skittles always save my day! Before I go to the office I'll make sure I have Twix or Skittles in my jacket. Chocolates and candies is not allowed inside the floor but I am being sneaky sometimes so I kept it in my jacket. Good thing I've never been caught. Yeehay!:)

Pressure Cooker!

Last Monday, things are going terrible that I even want to press the log off button of my Avaya. That was my first day being in the Pilot team. I panicked and crammed thinking how can I be able to control my cancellation calls to save my stats. The pressure is on. I was focused and very attentive to each of my calls. I tried to be competitive since most of my teammates are considered to be veterans in this field and already know the strategies and good attempts to make in each call. I was sleepy but made a way to keep my mind awake the whole shift. Thanks to Skittles and Twix, my comfort food while taking calls. I also realized that I miss my previous teammates especially Toretz, Des and Ellamo. We used to have funny conversations every shift and now my mood switched to serious mode since I am expected to perform well. Luckily, at the end of the day I passed the target. Hopefully, the same thing will happen next week.

Why Men Love Bitches?

I borrowed a book from my friend entitled "Why Men Love Bitches?". I am intrigued because of the good feed backs I heard from those who already read it. It was consists of 264 pages and I was able to finish reading it for two days. Yeah, I need to rush cause there's another friend next in line. The author of this bestseller book is Sherry Argov. While reading it, I learned so much about love, getting in a relationship and of course being a strong woman. The term "bitch" in this book is opposite of its original meaning. It is not about a creepy, gothic girl who dwells a lot in negative and wrong doings and is like the villain in a movie. The word "bitch" is define in this book as someone who have total control of herself, very independent, knows how to use her mind before her heart and of course someone who will not let others turn her down especially in a crucial situation. They say when a woman meets a man she already fall for him. In this book, it reverses the idea that it should be the guy who needs to do the chase. You're role as a woman is to let the fire on and make the man feel interested to you until he is caught up in the situation. The book also defines the difference between a "nice girl" to a "bitch". The nice girl will do everything to get the attention of the person she loves leaving nothing to herself so at the end when she did not get the satisfaction she is dreaming for she tends to lose her mind and the appetite to continue living a normal life. It will take years for her to recover and heal the wounds. So as to a bitch she manages to stand on her own and makes sure she is not totally attach to the man he loves. She still have her life and continue doing her interests while leaving the man of her life the thought of being independent. As the book says, guys love challenges. They hate it when the girl always do the talking and cannot decide on their own. The bitch here always believe in her own opinion. There were also a lot of guides when it comes to dating, getting in a relationship and choosing the guy you want to be with forever. It seems like the author of the book had wide experiences when it comes to love and being in a relationship for she was able to present good points and ideas very well. I admire her sincerity and for opening the fact that girls is not just a person designed to stay at home and do all the chores for the perfect girl also have a life and knows how to enjoy even she is already committed.

When I read the book, I concluded that I was the "nice girl". I belonged to the category of those who will do stupid things to get the attention of the guy she likes. I admit, I did that before and it did not work. And I learned from that experience. The chasing and the wrong moves definitely is not a good idea. I sucked when it comes to this matter. But now, I don't want to be the nice girl anymore. Yeah, being nice is still needed but it depends in a situation. I'm trying to be the bitch not because I read it in the book but because I have to. I need to get a hold of myself having total control of it. In the past, I let others control and dictate realizing I am like their puppet. Guys will always be guys. So I have to learn how to adapt to them in a manly manner using my confidence and being myself. The more I try to be myself, the more they will accept me. I made a lot of mistakes before and this is the perfect time to change and straighten things out so by the time the next guy will come I am more prepare and cool about it. I am not yet a bitch now by heart but soon to be one.

Need and Want

I need this job more than I want it. That was the first thing in my mind right now. Things change. And friends leave. Life doesn't stop for anybody. Most of my closest friends at work are leaving the company due to variety of reasons. I can't force them to stay. I just need to respect them and be happy with their decision. I am merely sad because of it but I can't beg them to stay when they aren't happy anymore. It is really hard but I need to cope up with it. We all have our own personal reason why we need to stay than go. In my case, I need this because of my family. I am the only one working. They are my responsibility. What my decision now will reflect what will be our life in the coming days. So I can't be just aggressive making a decision without thinking hard. It's not that I am scared of having regrets, I just can't sacrifice the life of my family. It is a big deal for me. They are my life. I know most of my friends are leaving now but it doesn't mean I can lose the communication with them. Friendship will still go on. After all, this binded us together for how many months now. Well, the time you spend with each other no longer matters cause what counts the most is that you are still there for them whatever instances it is. That's what friends are for. At work, I found real friends I can treasure for the rest of my life. We may have differences and flaws but we learned to accept each other and continuously enjoy the company. I love them as much as I love my work and family. But sometimes you need to choose which you think is right as of the moment, not maybe the best decision but be good for now. It doesn't end here. I still want changes in my life and sooner I'll settle everything. But as for now, I need to sacrifice. I hope my friends understand me. I wish nothing but the best luck for them.

Family Bonding: BINGO!

I am a very homebody person and so is my family. We don't usually go out unless we go to church, visit our relatives or do the groceries. Most of the time we spend our time watching tv, eating my Mom's special recipe or simply talking things about life. Now we have a new past time. That is playing Bingo. Weird as it may sound but we were influenced by my Mom. Every afternoon especially my rest day we used to play Bingo at our neighbor's place and it already served as our bonding moment. My father was also doing the same thing now and I admit we are all having fun. I kinda think that when things go wrong or if there is misunderstanding inside the house this past time brought us together and made us forget the bad conversation we had or the arguments. Funny but it's true. Sometimes you just have to find something that will put you all in the same ground despite of your differences. It is the small moments that really matters. You don't care about the place, the people you are with and what are you doing as long as you are with your loved one then everything is still going to be okay. Our Bingo moment as family will always be the best bonding I experienced lately and it is immeasurable.

PIT

I am scared. I thought this shift bid will excite me cause I can choose my own schedule after my effort to work on my stats for the last three months. When I saw the ranking, I was at #13 giving me chances to pick my own schedule and my supervisor. I was thinking of Sup Huff or Sup Demi. However, unexpected news came out. I was chosen to be part of the PIT Team. Well, the Pilot team. They were the group of people expected to perform everyday with good stats and always meeting the metrics. I performed good in the last three months so I should be proud of myself. But it freaked me out knowing I will be part of that team. The new teammates, the new supervisor, the rsr rate and the pressure. Double the pressure. I want a normal team. Once you belong in PIT, you're in the limelight. You need to contribute well. I know I can do it but with new teammates, I guess I am starting over again. And I need to go back from being independent, be a little selfish and work hard. I want to prove myself to them but at the same time I want to keep everything in low profile. I just hope I can make it next week. I am nervous. I am good when it comes to change and I am praying I can still perform the way I did before. I am also sad that most of my closest friends at work is now leaving to find a better position and company. I want to do the same thing but I think I am not yet ready. I need this job more than I want it because of my family. I'll do my best. I know it is all up to me. Please GOD give me enough strength. Well, goodluck!